I'm sorry, Aoi.
I owe you the deepest of apologies. I'm really sorry. Sorry for thinking you were the cause Ayabie was disbanding. Sorry to put all the blame on you. Sorry for that one moment when I stopped believing in you.
After reading your thoughts in your blog (translated in ayabie_diaries, I felt so guilty that I cried.
You weren't the one who wanted to leave the band in the first place, were you? The other 4 were. I couldn't quite understand much but I could see that you were hiding things that seemed to be so painful, somewhere between your words. You spoke of the days gone by when Ryouhei was still there, and I remember. I remember so well how amazing Ayabie was then. Not that with Yumehito Ayabie wasn't amazing, but the chemistry was much, much stronger back then. Ayabie after Ryouhei left was never the same. But I thought you really meant to change it, to build up a 'new' Ayabie.
I guess it hadn't been working well between you guys, had it? I feel sad for that.
Somehow, reading your words, I quote: ...and with such a drastic betrayal of everyone who has been supporting us, I now see how horrible it must have been for you. For all of you. Maybe you had so much faith in what Ayabie used to be, thinking you could probably hang on to it no matter what. Maybe the others didn't think the same; maybe, no, most likely they wanted something else. Maybe your ideas clashed too often that it had gotten tiresome.
Maybe... Maybe, our love for you had become a burden instead of a reason to keep believing.
Aoi, now I understand just how much you were hurt by this. Ayabie was, has been and probably will always be your life. I can't imagine how painful it must have been for you when everyone else decided to leave you on your own.
I'm sorry, I'm really, really sorry. I love Ayabie, but you must have loved it to the extent I couldn't even begin to imagine.
All I can do now is pray for the best for you and for the other 4. You guys have decided to go your own separate ways, and it's a finality that none of us, your fans, have any saying to. There's no changing your minds now that it has come to this, is there?
Good luck, Aoi, Intetsu, Takehito, Kenzo, and Yumehito. The future is vague, but I hope, beyond that, is something good that brings you all happiness.
I love you, Ayabie.
After reading your thoughts in your blog (translated in ayabie_diaries, I felt so guilty that I cried.
You weren't the one who wanted to leave the band in the first place, were you? The other 4 were. I couldn't quite understand much but I could see that you were hiding things that seemed to be so painful, somewhere between your words. You spoke of the days gone by when Ryouhei was still there, and I remember. I remember so well how amazing Ayabie was then. Not that with Yumehito Ayabie wasn't amazing, but the chemistry was much, much stronger back then. Ayabie after Ryouhei left was never the same. But I thought you really meant to change it, to build up a 'new' Ayabie.
I guess it hadn't been working well between you guys, had it? I feel sad for that.
Somehow, reading your words, I quote: ...and with such a drastic betrayal of everyone who has been supporting us, I now see how horrible it must have been for you. For all of you. Maybe you had so much faith in what Ayabie used to be, thinking you could probably hang on to it no matter what. Maybe the others didn't think the same; maybe, no, most likely they wanted something else. Maybe your ideas clashed too often that it had gotten tiresome.
Maybe... Maybe, our love for you had become a burden instead of a reason to keep believing.
Aoi, now I understand just how much you were hurt by this. Ayabie was, has been and probably will always be your life. I can't imagine how painful it must have been for you when everyone else decided to leave you on your own.
I'm sorry, I'm really, really sorry. I love Ayabie, but you must have loved it to the extent I couldn't even begin to imagine.
All I can do now is pray for the best for you and for the other 4. You guys have decided to go your own separate ways, and it's a finality that none of us, your fans, have any saying to. There's no changing your minds now that it has come to this, is there?
Good luck, Aoi, Intetsu, Takehito, Kenzo, and Yumehito. The future is vague, but I hope, beyond that, is something good that brings you all happiness.
I love you, Ayabie.