(208) I feel horrible, but I don't know why
I just committed myself to spend $8,000 over this summer for a two-month study abroad trip to Guadalajara. And I don't feel very good about it.
It's probably the money. It's a lot for one summer. Study abroad programs don't run cheap, and though this is probably one of the better deals on campus, it's still one heck of a lot of cash that's going to be gone.
I like the program. I busted my ass to fill out the application and send in the info and do well in the interviews. I was so happy to get in because it's the first thing that I've applied to since entering the Honors program freshman year that has allowed me in. But gosh darn it, why does it have to cost so much, and why am I so worried about what might happen?
If I back out now, I lose $600.00 because that's a non-refundable fee. I really really hope this will turn out well. Really really. Like if this is a trip that can show me one of the meanings of life or help me figure out what I want to do as a career and why I want to do it and provide me the material to make my case in a fantastic sort of way - well, that might be worth eight thousand, huh?
Damn but I want a scholarship. Can I at least spin it in that only ten people are chosen from my university to go each year?
It's probably the money. It's a lot for one summer. Study abroad programs don't run cheap, and though this is probably one of the better deals on campus, it's still one heck of a lot of cash that's going to be gone.
I like the program. I busted my ass to fill out the application and send in the info and do well in the interviews. I was so happy to get in because it's the first thing that I've applied to since entering the Honors program freshman year that has allowed me in. But gosh darn it, why does it have to cost so much, and why am I so worried about what might happen?
If I back out now, I lose $600.00 because that's a non-refundable fee. I really really hope this will turn out well. Really really. Like if this is a trip that can show me one of the meanings of life or help me figure out what I want to do as a career and why I want to do it and provide me the material to make my case in a fantastic sort of way - well, that might be worth eight thousand, huh?
Damn but I want a scholarship. Can I at least spin it in that only ten people are chosen from my university to go each year?