Long long long long...
How long haven't I posted here? Almost 4 months...
So much has happened and I still have so many worries. Those were the things keeping me from posting in my LJ blog. It doesn't help that LJ is now blocked in China...wtf...
Somehow, I am hating China more and more. Probably because of all the bad things I have seen and experience and how much disappointment has hit me during this period of time.
I am stuck in the middle of nowhere, with no definite path in front of me. In fact, I feel that the paths in front of me are blocked in some way and the only path that is free of obstructions has nothing at the end of the road.
I can just say that I am not exactly in the best of health now, the highest contributing factor is my emotions. I have so much worries in my mind and it is taking a toll on me. I know I have the tendency to bottle up everything and be emo. And being emo is not a good thing. But I don't know how I can get out of it.
I am falling deeper and deeper into an abyss, reaching out for the rapidly darkening sunlight...
So much has happened and I still have so many worries. Those were the things keeping me from posting in my LJ blog. It doesn't help that LJ is now blocked in China...wtf...
Somehow, I am hating China more and more. Probably because of all the bad things I have seen and experience and how much disappointment has hit me during this period of time.
I am stuck in the middle of nowhere, with no definite path in front of me. In fact, I feel that the paths in front of me are blocked in some way and the only path that is free of obstructions has nothing at the end of the road.
I can just say that I am not exactly in the best of health now, the highest contributing factor is my emotions. I have so much worries in my mind and it is taking a toll on me. I know I have the tendency to bottle up everything and be emo. And being emo is not a good thing. But I don't know how I can get out of it.
I am falling deeper and deeper into an abyss, reaching out for the rapidly darkening sunlight...