sweaty!!!!!!!!!
it's so hot!! i just took a shower and i'm so sweaty already..
hehe.. i forgot to update yesterday so here's what happened since Tuesday, March23.
Tuesday. called him up and i asked him why he didn't call for four whole days. he said he was callin' me last friday but no one answered so he assumed that i went to our province or something.. and added up that he thought that i was still mad at him.. he should've sounded sorry, but he didnt.. anyway, i asked him to come over. i planned on talking to him about the shit he's been doin'. so at around 2pm, he's here and he was being his sweety-sweety self but i wasn't in the mood for all that. i was serious and he was tryin' to make me smile. then i started. it old him of the things i feel, how i feel so alone though he says he's there. how i feel that i'm the only one determined to make our relationship work. he got serious. and was thinking too. he asked me if im tired of it all already.. and honestly, i told him that i'm not sure.. he said that he admits that he hasn't been a very good boyfriend.. he has told me all those before, and i thought it was enough that he knows his faults.. but now, i asked him.. after you admitted it, will you just leave it like that?? what will you do after that??.. i asked if him, if ever i am tired of it, if ever i cannot bear it all anymore, what'll he do about it?? .. he said, he'd take the pain away.. he said he'd change..
i dont really completely believe him yet.. but i gave him another chance.. we'll see.. if nothing really happens.. then i nothing happens, i cant force it.. i cant force myself.. and i cant force him to..
anyway, its been going well since that talk, everythings okay.. for now... just wish it would last..
on to another subject..
i've been trying to make a new layout for my lj last night.. alas, i didn't like the things i made, i kept on deleting the stuffs i made.. hehe.. i cant find that thing i want coz im not sure what i want.. pfftt.. i'll go try making another one...
hehe.. i forgot to update yesterday so here's what happened since Tuesday, March23.
Tuesday. called him up and i asked him why he didn't call for four whole days. he said he was callin' me last friday but no one answered so he assumed that i went to our province or something.. and added up that he thought that i was still mad at him.. he should've sounded sorry, but he didnt.. anyway, i asked him to come over. i planned on talking to him about the shit he's been doin'. so at around 2pm, he's here and he was being his sweety-sweety self but i wasn't in the mood for all that. i was serious and he was tryin' to make me smile. then i started. it old him of the things i feel, how i feel so alone though he says he's there. how i feel that i'm the only one determined to make our relationship work. he got serious. and was thinking too. he asked me if im tired of it all already.. and honestly, i told him that i'm not sure.. he said that he admits that he hasn't been a very good boyfriend.. he has told me all those before, and i thought it was enough that he knows his faults.. but now, i asked him.. after you admitted it, will you just leave it like that?? what will you do after that??.. i asked if him, if ever i am tired of it, if ever i cannot bear it all anymore, what'll he do about it?? .. he said, he'd take the pain away.. he said he'd change..
i dont really completely believe him yet.. but i gave him another chance.. we'll see.. if nothing really happens.. then i nothing happens, i cant force it.. i cant force myself.. and i cant force him to..
anyway, its been going well since that talk, everythings okay.. for now... just wish it would last..
on to another subject..
i've been trying to make a new layout for my lj last night.. alas, i didn't like the things i made, i kept on deleting the stuffs i made.. hehe.. i cant find that thing i want coz im not sure what i want.. pfftt.. i'll go try making another one...