[Song-fic] Your love is a lie
Title: Your love is a lie
Author: akeru (me!)
Genre: Song fic, angst
Pairing: Nishikato, ShigexSomeone (your choose!)
Rating: PG? PG-13?? idk
Summary: i really have to do it??
A/N : The song is "Your love is a lie", by Simple Plan. I listened it early this morning and i couldn't stop singing it. And i thought it could be a great inspiration for a fic. I fail, but you forgive me right?? it's my first fic in english and is unbetaed. Please tell me if it's something wrong ne??. At first i didn't know what the pairing would be, but these days, in my mind all is about nishikato, so... complain to Yuki-chan, it's her fault because she did me addicted to Nishkato with her fics ^^
Comments are love ne??
I fell sleep by the telephone
It’s 2 o’clock and I’m waiting up alone
Tell me, where have you been?
When I came back home, you weren’t here yet. I thought “he hasn’t work today… Where can he be?” And went straight to the kitchen to make dinner.
Now I’m on the couch, trying not fall asleep and waiting for you. I’m worried you know? You don’t pick your phone although I called you so many times. I don’t want to think… I don’t want to believe what my mind says…
Then you arrive, I say “okaeri, where have you been??” and you only say “sorry, I didn’t know it was that late”, kiss me, take my hand and go to the bedroom together. You don’t look at me, only change your clothes and fall asleep right away.
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss but it just don’t feel the same
‘Cause I can feel that you’re gone
I can’t bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don’t take me for a fool
You have been coming back home later and later, I know what’s happen. But I can’t ask, I don’t want to hear it, no when I saw these words in your book, these words that I didn’t write and only I should write for you, because I know what would your answer be: “Nothing”
And now you’re gone every evening, saying you have an appointment with your friends to study, or some extra classes, even that you’re going to Koyama’s because he’s having a bad time with girls… when you know he has a BOYfriend.
You can tell me that there’s nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you’re home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know your love is just a lie
It’s nothing but a lie
I called you one night when I was in Osaka
“ Where are you?”
“At home, I was so tired after rehearsal…”
“ oh, Were you asleep?? Sorry…”
“No, it’s ok, I was only reading”
But then I heard a little crash and a muffled “sorry”
“How was your day?” At least I can pretend I didn’t hear anything, can’t I?
“Like I said, tired… hey, sorry but I have to go, the home phone is ringing”
“Oh… ok, I call you later”
“It’s ok, you can sleep, we are going to see each other in a few days right??”
“True… ne, I miss you… I’ll call tomor-“
“Ok. Bye~!”
You don’t know how I felt at that time. I said I missed you and you hanged up on me! He was with you right? He was in our house, in our bedroom right? And you said you were alone…
Ne, you still love me?? I know you loved me sometime, but now? It’s like everything that you said to me is a lie now, like you never had said it I can’t believe it. I’m a fool, am I? For believe that you would love me forever, that I was enough for you, that you needed me, like I need you… But it’s a lie.
And you look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah, you know what I mean
And when I came back and you welcomed me with a bright smile and a sweet kiss I couldn’t take it anymore. So when we were having dinner I said it
“ You’re cheating on me, don’t you??”
Oh, you were so shocked at that moment. It was almost funny, the way you looked at me…
“Wh-what??”
“You’re cheating on me… “
“Tha-that’s not true. I- I …”
“oh, stop that ok?? I know!! Do you think that you can lie to me?? Do you really think I’m stupid?? You think I’m blind?? Tell me!!”
“ R-Ryo… it’s not like t-that… I- I…”
How does it feel when you kiss
When you know that I trust you?
And do you think about me when he fucks you?
Could you be more obscene?
I was so angry with you… you looked like you were going to cry, and I couldn’t do nothing but laugh. I can see nothing, I can hear nothing. I can only imagine him on top of you, kissing you, touching you, and that makes me crazy. I want to hit you, I really want.
“How was it??
“ E-Eh??”
“When he fucked you, how was it. Was it good?? He’s better than me?? You screamed his name??”
“Please stop…”
“Why?? Why would I?? You knew what you were doing. You knew that I was at home waiting for you, dying for see you… And what were you doing?? Screaming like a whore and coming for him!! I don’t want to see you…”
“ NO! No please, Ryo. Listen to me…”
“Get out!! Arrrg, I’m so mad! You don’t worth it…”
Don’t try to say you’re sorry
Or try to make it right
And don’t waste your breath
Because it’s too late, it’s too late
“Please Ryo… I don’t want to break up” You were crying. I can’t understand how you can be that desperate after what you did to me
“ But I do, I can’t be with you after this. Now get out”
“Ryo, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. He didn’t mean anything to me, I was so stressed, and you were never at home… I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry. Please…”
“So, it’s my fault now?? I can’t believe it!!”
“No!! I didn’t say it like that! I was so confused… Please, don’t leave me, I’m sorry…”
“It’s too late, Shige. It’s too late…”
“Don’t say that, please!! I’m sorry, Ryo. I love you, I love you so much…”
“Don’t lie to me, that’s the biggest lie you can say to me” I was crying too. It hurt so much, so so much. I felt like I couldn’t breath, my chest aches, my blood boiling in my veins. But I couldn’t look at you straight into your eyes. I can’t.
“But it’s true!!!!”
You can tell me that there’s nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you’re home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know your love is just a lie, lie
I know you’re nothing but a lie, lie.
You’re nothing but a lie, lie. Your love is just a lie.
“Please, leave”
“No”
“Leave!!!”
“No!!”
“ …I’m begging you, Shige. Leave”
“Ryo, don’t do this. I love you… and you love me”
…
“Right?”
“…Yeah, I love you. I love you although what you did to me, I love you so much I could die for you. But I can’t trust you anymore, I can’t look at you. Please, leave me alone”
You wrapped your arms around me from behind and I couldn’t breathe anymore
“Ok, I’ll leave now. But I don’t give up on you. I’ll fight for you. I’ll show you how much I love you and what I can do for you, so you can be able to trust me again…”
You don’t know how much I want to do that… but that seems impossible now.
“Please… leave”
When you pulled away I felt like collapsing, so empty… You kissed me on the neck and go to the door, but before you left
“Remember that I love you Ryo, there’s no other but you in my heart. I love you, and I forever will”
And then you’re out. And I fell on the floor, asking “why” over and over again, and my tears didn’t stop…
A/N: how was it?? angst?? You know that i don't like angst but idk, i couldn't think anything fluff. And i feel a bit angst too these days so...forgive me?? Nah.. i know you guys like angst so much hehe.