Feb 03, 2010 14:44
I feel bad.
You're a great person! You're pretty, smart, capable, tall...you have everything that you need. You don't need a boyfriend Cynthia. You have everyone in the world that loves you. Even if you don't have your parents (or partially do), there is everyone else! I think you're more beautiful and accomplished than me.
Because I'm mean, I'm judgmental, I treat my boyfriend pretty bad and I don't feel any remorse. I'm probably one of the worst people you will ever meet. I'm not being modest, this is pretty much the on-spot truth.
I'm glad that you're able to break up with Josh without crying. I'm glad that you feel that it's right (don't take this the wrong way!). You're everything that I need to be, Cynthia.
For me, my feelings for Julio were one-sided. I was oblivious to everything, I was selfish, and when he dropped the ball on me I was in shock.
But Cynthia, since you cared for Josh, or thought about him, you could sense the gap in feelings(?). Correct me if I'm wrong. I can't even do that! I just think about me, me, me, love for me, me, and only me.
I'm sorry that I never encouraged your relationship with Josh. That's probably why you never come to me with your problems.
I'm sorry that it has come to this.
It's great, however, that you have found a boyfriend-even if it didn't last. I know that you wanted to feel loved. But you didn't even need a boyfriend before, Cynthia! You just weren't aware of it; everyone around you, loves you!
I hope you find your path, Cynthia. My tears are for your success! I probably won't be around you at that point, but still! I will always remember you. :D
Love,
Naya.
life