perfect little death
I want to be with erik
I want to be with logan
I want to be with domo
I want to be with tobin
I wint to be with sid
scratch that, I don't want to be with sid. I want to be with the sid that I used to know, but this new one will shrug me off into a pit of nothingness and go spend time with his beautiful kelli. I hold nothing against kelli, she's a lovely girl with many virtues, but I miss my old sid, the one who would hold me and tell me it's ok when I nearly start crying in the middle of the hallway because I found out my dad is in fact, not coming home. That sid was dating Kelli, but now he and Kelli are poending time with people that don't really like me. Jessica and Julia. I've never spoken to Juia but she's constantly giving me looks of distain. Like I don't deserve to be in the same room as her. Jessica used to like me but she doesn't now. I wonder what she heard. Part of me thinks that Kelli doesn't like me and is telling Jessica and Julia that I've been trying to steal Sid from her. if sid's been stolen from anyone, it's me.
see, I am a petty, bitchy, dirty and all around wrong person and my own mother cannot stand to speak to me for 10 minutes without criticizing something. And don't you even get me started on my father, who doesn't take anything I say seriously, and quite possibly doesn't care for my company because everytime I spend some time with him, or even talk to him, I am criticized and not taken seriously. with good reason. I'm an uncreative, ungreatful, spoiled little superfical brat who doesn't deserve the wonderful boyfriend I have been blessed with. because I am bitter that I am the only one in our group who hasn't been asked to be in the band that I've yearned to contribute to for months, since last youear even, when it was still just an idea.
so please, if you know what's good for you, don't talk to me, because I'll find some reason to be mad at you and ruin your day.
alas and alack,
Ella
I want to be with logan
I want to be with domo
I want to be with tobin
I wint to be with sid
scratch that, I don't want to be with sid. I want to be with the sid that I used to know, but this new one will shrug me off into a pit of nothingness and go spend time with his beautiful kelli. I hold nothing against kelli, she's a lovely girl with many virtues, but I miss my old sid, the one who would hold me and tell me it's ok when I nearly start crying in the middle of the hallway because I found out my dad is in fact, not coming home. That sid was dating Kelli, but now he and Kelli are poending time with people that don't really like me. Jessica and Julia. I've never spoken to Juia but she's constantly giving me looks of distain. Like I don't deserve to be in the same room as her. Jessica used to like me but she doesn't now. I wonder what she heard. Part of me thinks that Kelli doesn't like me and is telling Jessica and Julia that I've been trying to steal Sid from her. if sid's been stolen from anyone, it's me.
see, I am a petty, bitchy, dirty and all around wrong person and my own mother cannot stand to speak to me for 10 minutes without criticizing something. And don't you even get me started on my father, who doesn't take anything I say seriously, and quite possibly doesn't care for my company because everytime I spend some time with him, or even talk to him, I am criticized and not taken seriously. with good reason. I'm an uncreative, ungreatful, spoiled little superfical brat who doesn't deserve the wonderful boyfriend I have been blessed with. because I am bitter that I am the only one in our group who hasn't been asked to be in the band that I've yearned to contribute to for months, since last youear even, when it was still just an idea.
so please, if you know what's good for you, don't talk to me, because I'll find some reason to be mad at you and ruin your day.
alas and alack,
Ella