This war is getting harder to fight by my self...
I lead a boring life, which is not a life. I am merely a robot doing what others tell me to do obediently. I say nothing, my mouth stays closed, and on the rare occasion that I do open my mouth, words do not come out. I want to do so much, and I can't, for I am stuck living this life which is not a life. I want a job, I want to have fun, I want to hang out with friends. I want to go out and do something, staying in and sitting around baby sitting isn't working for me anymore, and when I address that, and tell them I do not get paid, they tell me I shouldn't need to get paid becuase they work. But on their days off they're not working, they're out drinking and partying and gambling, among other things, but I'm still stuck babysitting.
I feel like everyone is out living life, and I'm standing still. I'm not even allowed to go to my sister's anymore, which really actually sucks. I can not get a paying job because then people will have no live-in babysitter.
I do have to say things with the boyfriend, are great. While everything else in my life continues to crumble, we get stronger. We made each other cards yesterday, it was cute. It was just construction paper, markers, and glitter glue. Just because, for no reason really, yesterday was our 4 month, making it the longest relationship he's ever had. lol, but because of my stupidity, not mine. Oh well. I gave him a hair cut yesterday, which I've never done before, but it doesn't look too bad.
My leg looks lovely, it got crushed my a snow blower. Oh yes.
the pics are crappy cuz my cam sucks lol. but I have to go, the Keeper is calling me to clean. Fucking brothers sleeping not doing shti and it's his kids trashing the place. fucker.