Josh, Josh, Josh
So the night before heather left we all (josh, heather,me and my roomies)
all got trashed. Sat around drinking and talking it was a good time.
After awhile Josh and I where the only ones up. We were sitting it front
of the computer talking and drinking. Then josh slid his chair up next
to me and stuck his hand up my shorts and started playing with me.
We just kept talking. I reached over and starting to play with him.
Then he unzipped my shorts and started giving me head. That I was not
expecting at all. It was quite nice. After a few minutes we headed back
to my room and had sex. He was like you better enjoy yourself. lol
I had a great time. Been waiting over 4 years for that.
The next day I gave heather a ride to the airport. Helped her get all her stuff
inside. I gave her a hug goodbye and she told me to take care of josh and
not to let him do anything stupid. I promised and headed off to work.
I called josh to tell him she had made it and was ready to go and told him
what she had told me. Then he told me that she told him that she had
heard us last night and was not asleep like we had thought. oops!
She wasnt upset. She knew about our past, and that i care for him alot.
So over the next few days, I drove out to the valley to visit josh and the kids.
One day we just walked around palmer, took the kids to the part. It was very nice.
Then with conflicting work schedules and such didnt see him for about a week.
Last Tuesday he came and stayed the night with the kids again. I was off for the
next couple of days so we got shitty drunk again. just me josh and steven this time.
As soon as steven went and passed out for the night, we headed back to my room again.
It was better then the time before. We both went to sleep after that. Me in my room and him
out by the kids so he could keep an eye on them. Josh had to work in the morning. So I watched
the kids. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. Changing diapers and all that. He ended up
staying here till friday. I had a great time. Especially on thursday night. We had put the kids into my room to sleep so everyone could hang out in the living room and watch tv and all that. Josh was getting tired and so he laid down on the an extra matress we had brought out into the livingroom.
I had to leave and run some errands. Josh was going to move the kids out to the living room so I could have my room. I got back. Everyone but steven was sleep. He said josh had passed out. Woke up asked where i was, asked for a blanket and passed back out. So, I didnt want to movet he kid and wake them up, so i just laid down next to josh. That was very nice. Just to lay next to him.
He is back out in the valley now. I have no idea when I will see him next. I wish I knew what was
going on. It was almost starting to feel like a relationship. Right at this moment I really dont want to feel that way. Mainly i dont want to get hurt. Also i dont want to push josh away. I want it to stay like it is. Just friendly. No expectations. I know josh is trying to figure out a lot of things right now.
well thats it for now.
I think we need to talk
I need to talk
I have questions only he can answer
all got trashed. Sat around drinking and talking it was a good time.
After awhile Josh and I where the only ones up. We were sitting it front
of the computer talking and drinking. Then josh slid his chair up next
to me and stuck his hand up my shorts and started playing with me.
We just kept talking. I reached over and starting to play with him.
Then he unzipped my shorts and started giving me head. That I was not
expecting at all. It was quite nice. After a few minutes we headed back
to my room and had sex. He was like you better enjoy yourself. lol
I had a great time. Been waiting over 4 years for that.
The next day I gave heather a ride to the airport. Helped her get all her stuff
inside. I gave her a hug goodbye and she told me to take care of josh and
not to let him do anything stupid. I promised and headed off to work.
I called josh to tell him she had made it and was ready to go and told him
what she had told me. Then he told me that she told him that she had
heard us last night and was not asleep like we had thought. oops!
She wasnt upset. She knew about our past, and that i care for him alot.
So over the next few days, I drove out to the valley to visit josh and the kids.
One day we just walked around palmer, took the kids to the part. It was very nice.
Then with conflicting work schedules and such didnt see him for about a week.
Last Tuesday he came and stayed the night with the kids again. I was off for the
next couple of days so we got shitty drunk again. just me josh and steven this time.
As soon as steven went and passed out for the night, we headed back to my room again.
It was better then the time before. We both went to sleep after that. Me in my room and him
out by the kids so he could keep an eye on them. Josh had to work in the morning. So I watched
the kids. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. Changing diapers and all that. He ended up
staying here till friday. I had a great time. Especially on thursday night. We had put the kids into my room to sleep so everyone could hang out in the living room and watch tv and all that. Josh was getting tired and so he laid down on the an extra matress we had brought out into the livingroom.
I had to leave and run some errands. Josh was going to move the kids out to the living room so I could have my room. I got back. Everyone but steven was sleep. He said josh had passed out. Woke up asked where i was, asked for a blanket and passed back out. So, I didnt want to movet he kid and wake them up, so i just laid down next to josh. That was very nice. Just to lay next to him.
He is back out in the valley now. I have no idea when I will see him next. I wish I knew what was
going on. It was almost starting to feel like a relationship. Right at this moment I really dont want to feel that way. Mainly i dont want to get hurt. Also i dont want to push josh away. I want it to stay like it is. Just friendly. No expectations. I know josh is trying to figure out a lot of things right now.
well thats it for now.
I think we need to talk
I need to talk
I have questions only he can answer