My Heart Got Broken
For the first time in my life, i have gotten my heart broken, but that's okay. I think it happens so we can learn from it. The bad things happen so that we can learn.
I do miss Dave. I miss my friend, I miss that person who used to make me laugh, the person who made me bring down my walls. He did that, he was good at that. He was good at knowing what to say to make me feel better. He knew how to calm me down when I was busy freaking out about one thing or another. I know that about myself now. I know that I put up walls and make it hard for people to get close to me, I know that is my own fault. But with Dave, I let him in. I let him be that person that I confided in. I always tried to see the good in him regardless of what everyone else said, even what he said. I know that might've been naive of me to do, but I think that everyone deserves to be able to have a second chance. He always said I wasn't good enough for him, I don't think that was it. I think he was worried that I would being the good out of him. I think he was worried that someone good and genuine did exist. He said he could handle me and that he could.
Cold snow in the face was a real wakeup call, things are changing. Dave isn't the person he used to be, he is a vague shadow of the person he once was. His friends see it and even I see it. I don't blame it on his girlfriend. You make your own bed so you have to lie in it. It's just that I thought he'd be with someone who make him happy, someone who brought the best out him. I never marked him to be with someone who was just there. That's all, she's just there. She doesn't challenge him or bring the best out of him. If that is what he wants, then I'm happy for him...
...but I know him better than that and I know that is not what he wants or even deserves.
So with that said. I have faith that he'll come back around. I just that he'll come back around with no snowballs or anything that can be thrown haha.
I do miss Dave. I miss my friend, I miss that person who used to make me laugh, the person who made me bring down my walls. He did that, he was good at that. He was good at knowing what to say to make me feel better. He knew how to calm me down when I was busy freaking out about one thing or another. I know that about myself now. I know that I put up walls and make it hard for people to get close to me, I know that is my own fault. But with Dave, I let him in. I let him be that person that I confided in. I always tried to see the good in him regardless of what everyone else said, even what he said. I know that might've been naive of me to do, but I think that everyone deserves to be able to have a second chance. He always said I wasn't good enough for him, I don't think that was it. I think he was worried that I would being the good out of him. I think he was worried that someone good and genuine did exist. He said he could handle me and that he could.
Cold snow in the face was a real wakeup call, things are changing. Dave isn't the person he used to be, he is a vague shadow of the person he once was. His friends see it and even I see it. I don't blame it on his girlfriend. You make your own bed so you have to lie in it. It's just that I thought he'd be with someone who make him happy, someone who brought the best out him. I never marked him to be with someone who was just there. That's all, she's just there. She doesn't challenge him or bring the best out of him. If that is what he wants, then I'm happy for him...
...but I know him better than that and I know that is not what he wants or even deserves.
So with that said. I have faith that he'll come back around. I just that he'll come back around with no snowballs or anything that can be thrown haha.