Just want to be 'home'...
Hey everyone,
I don't normally update too much, but I think I'm going to much more now so that I can keep in touch with everyone. I've been a bit down lately, with everyone off at college and having so much fun I almost feel a bit out of the loop as I've been made to wait so much longer for my college experience, but hey only a week to go! I've been doing quite a bit of thinking lately and I've realized that I tend to think of the future a ton. I'm not sure if that is a good thing though and I'm not sure how that will help me in college. When I say think of the future, I don't mean a month or two, I'm thinking more like three years time when I'm actually done with college. I've decided that I'm going to move back to Chicago. It might sound a bit too forward thought, but I've never been as happy as I was when I was living with all of you guys in Naperville. I've moved around enough to realize that Naperville was a place where I truly felt at home. I mean sure I've still got my Brit Pride, but at the same time the experiences I had, people I met, the amazing relationship I was a part of (and still am!) with my ameeeezing girlfriend, all made Naperville feel like the place where I developed the most and became the person I am in. So anyway here is the point of my post...I'm worried that I won't enjoy my college experience as much as I should because of the impact that Naperville had on me leaves me thinking only of one day coming back, that being hopefully in three years. Also, it hasn't helped that I don't have the person who I talk about anything and everything with by my side anymore. Like I said, the happiest times of my life so far have been in Naperville and the vast majority of them have been to do with Julia. I can't stand being away from her and I guess that is why I keep thinking of the future so much, because in my mind it revolves around her. I mean I know it is great to think about her so much and of the future so much, but should I do it so much? I've been so up and down lately...one second I will be thinking of coming back to the Chicago area and being with her and the next I think 'Wow, that is three years away. Will things have changed to much for my dream to become a reality??'
Ugh...I feel like such a whiny biotch...sorry for the rant, but if I could either turn the clock back four years or forward three, then I would do it without a seconds hesitation.
Sorry you had to read all the waffle.
Steve
I don't normally update too much, but I think I'm going to much more now so that I can keep in touch with everyone. I've been a bit down lately, with everyone off at college and having so much fun I almost feel a bit out of the loop as I've been made to wait so much longer for my college experience, but hey only a week to go! I've been doing quite a bit of thinking lately and I've realized that I tend to think of the future a ton. I'm not sure if that is a good thing though and I'm not sure how that will help me in college. When I say think of the future, I don't mean a month or two, I'm thinking more like three years time when I'm actually done with college. I've decided that I'm going to move back to Chicago. It might sound a bit too forward thought, but I've never been as happy as I was when I was living with all of you guys in Naperville. I've moved around enough to realize that Naperville was a place where I truly felt at home. I mean sure I've still got my Brit Pride, but at the same time the experiences I had, people I met, the amazing relationship I was a part of (and still am!) with my ameeeezing girlfriend, all made Naperville feel like the place where I developed the most and became the person I am in. So anyway here is the point of my post...I'm worried that I won't enjoy my college experience as much as I should because of the impact that Naperville had on me leaves me thinking only of one day coming back, that being hopefully in three years. Also, it hasn't helped that I don't have the person who I talk about anything and everything with by my side anymore. Like I said, the happiest times of my life so far have been in Naperville and the vast majority of them have been to do with Julia. I can't stand being away from her and I guess that is why I keep thinking of the future so much, because in my mind it revolves around her. I mean I know it is great to think about her so much and of the future so much, but should I do it so much? I've been so up and down lately...one second I will be thinking of coming back to the Chicago area and being with her and the next I think 'Wow, that is three years away. Will things have changed to much for my dream to become a reality??'
Ugh...I feel like such a whiny biotch...sorry for the rant, but if I could either turn the clock back four years or forward three, then I would do it without a seconds hesitation.
Sorry you had to read all the waffle.
Steve