YEAR # 3
haven't written here in a while. no worries...i'm not here to vent or to talk about what i've been up to in the past, idk how long. i'm just here to document something i'd like to remember and keep track off.
so i've notice it happens every three years. it's quite interesting really. before i thought it was just coincidence you know..like when shit just happens. it's just not meant to be. but since 1997 every three years the same thing happens for just about the same reasons. maybe i'm being paranoid and i'm looking into it a bit too hard. but it worries me. gives me a sense of hopelessness. like no matter what i won't be able to stop it. anyways it looks like this is year three and it just might happen again. all the signs have presented themselves. i really wish it won't though, not this time. so now it's time to figure out how to stop it. this is the year that i find out if i have complete control over what happens in my life. a part of me wants to believe it was me all along, that it was my fault. Then again a part of me wants to believe that i did everything right and there was nothing i could do to change it. i guess i'll find out soon enough.
until next time...
so i've notice it happens every three years. it's quite interesting really. before i thought it was just coincidence you know..like when shit just happens. it's just not meant to be. but since 1997 every three years the same thing happens for just about the same reasons. maybe i'm being paranoid and i'm looking into it a bit too hard. but it worries me. gives me a sense of hopelessness. like no matter what i won't be able to stop it. anyways it looks like this is year three and it just might happen again. all the signs have presented themselves. i really wish it won't though, not this time. so now it's time to figure out how to stop it. this is the year that i find out if i have complete control over what happens in my life. a part of me wants to believe it was me all along, that it was my fault. Then again a part of me wants to believe that i did everything right and there was nothing i could do to change it. i guess i'll find out soon enough.
until next time...