God said, "Let there be light!" I hear it went out a long time aog. I came to fix that.
I look at the world with a more mature stand point. Yesterday, before the concert, Ande kissed me. I stood there for a second shocked... I didn't kiss back. All I could think of where morals and one person... Nikki. I know that we have split or different paths, but there is still something inside me that makes me think of her continuously. After those two seconds passed I just nudged her off of me and told her never again.
It hurts... it hurts to hold yourself from loving. It hurts not to help the person you love. It hurts to not be there to comfort them. But... I guess these emotions and feelings are just how humans are when they are in love. They need to be with that person 24/7 even though they don't realize that their fate is doomed. They don't care as long as they are with that person, but then... those are the thoughts of selfishness.
I wish I could change many things, but then again, I want to keep going. After learning many quotes, scriptures, and phrases, it all helps. I can look back on these words and draw strength from them. I can apply them to my day everyday. I guess that's all the fun of no time travel, you can never go back, but you must overcome what is ahead of you. But... then that would be fate... wouldn't it?
I've had so many questions that have run through my mind. So many opportunities that I could have made, but I feel... that deep down I have made the right decisions to them. Only time can tell when such things will happen, but I feel that I have a long time to go. I think I have enough patience to wait for those answers to reveal themselves...
It hurts... it hurts to hold yourself from loving. It hurts not to help the person you love. It hurts to not be there to comfort them. But... I guess these emotions and feelings are just how humans are when they are in love. They need to be with that person 24/7 even though they don't realize that their fate is doomed. They don't care as long as they are with that person, but then... those are the thoughts of selfishness.
I wish I could change many things, but then again, I want to keep going. After learning many quotes, scriptures, and phrases, it all helps. I can look back on these words and draw strength from them. I can apply them to my day everyday. I guess that's all the fun of no time travel, you can never go back, but you must overcome what is ahead of you. But... then that would be fate... wouldn't it?
I've had so many questions that have run through my mind. So many opportunities that I could have made, but I feel... that deep down I have made the right decisions to them. Only time can tell when such things will happen, but I feel that I have a long time to go. I think I have enough patience to wait for those answers to reveal themselves...