Attention: I'm angry. Fuck off if you can't take angry.
So. I get reviews. Not a whole lot these days, considering that my output is just about nil, but still... some. And mostly it's a :D moment.
And then there are the times when it's not.
Like, this morning I opened my mail to find this little gem for COCK:
I've been waiting since July for an update. I realize your pregnant but please try and update sooner or update several chapters at once. This is ridiculous.
And, really, my blood pressure isn't high enough for me to need to watch it (110/70 this morning and 128/78 this evening, if you must know... Yeah, being in hospital gives you good info about your body :P) so my first - yet unfollowed because I was distracted - urge was to respond with a big resounding Fuck you. Don't let the door hit you in the ass on your way out!
I refuse to once more let the rudeness slide and see it for ~what it is~ and see it as someone simply being ~eager for more~. Let me tell you what I think it is - I think it is damn disrespectful of me as a person. This jerk comes in, obviously completely ignorant about my personal situation, and begins to make judgement calls about when and how I should be able to update some stupid fan fic. Fuck that.
It doesn't even matter that I'm in hospital and even before that had all kinds of other stuff (financial problems, managing a depression without meds, pelvis problems, etc.) This reader entitlement has to stop. We all have our reasons to update or not update and guess what? If I should've just lost interest (didn't happen) that would be okay too. As a reader, just expressing enthusiasm about future updates is okay and even flattering. Asking for an update is okay, although sometimes a bit grating, depending on tone and time frame. Demanding updates with more frequency or volume, however, that is just plain rude and if you should get that urge as my reader? I'd really rather that you simply went away never to contact me in any way, shape or form again. I am not that gratified that you're enjoying what I freely put out there on my own time to not be pissed off when you treat me
like I'm your bitch!
Funny thing is, I was actually beginning to working on COCK again to see if I could put out a chapter before the end of the year. I probably can if I manage to get a hold of any my betas (it's been so long that I'm uncertain what they're all currently up to) and I probably will in spite of this and other douchecanoes. (Some readers have informed me that it's time for me to post the Silencio sequel. Fuck you. I decide when it's time. Honestly, at this rate, I consider posting the first chapter and then we'll see how many years it'll take before I get around to posting the second. :P)
So, to summarise - I'm fed up with some people. Treat me with respect if you want me to treat you with respect. I'm not so hung up on being liked by everyone that I'm going to tolerate this shit unconditionally. I'm glad someone likes my writing but my writing isn't all of me. These people need to grow up.
Oh, and it wasn't even on FFnet. Someone always asks if it were. ;P