opening night eve jitters
i got home from work about a half an hour ago. before that i had to go to rehearsal. it went ok. i'm nervous, and not because i have to perform in front of people. i got over my stage fright senior year. i'm just nervous that no one is going to show up for the play considering the only advertisement around campus has been the school newspaper. we'll make the best of it, we have some pretty good actors with us.
and so starts my usual opening night eve jitters. i just felt so... weird tonight. watching some of the people act just made me feel like i... well, can't. but that shouldn't seem like a surprise to any of you, i always think i suck at everything. i mean, i do try my best, and i'm sure i could do better... i'm just scared that i'm going to look stupid and that everyone will be saying something in their heads about it. i know that acting is probably the worst thing to think that way about because not everyone can get up there and do that, but still. i compare myself too much to other people. i mean, i DO have experience... this is my tenth "show", but still. i had some pretty good parts last year, i.e.- first witch in macbeth and lead in black comedy, but i still think the fact that i was a senior had a lot to do with the roles i got, although clearly the last show of my senior year in high school after being in drama for three and a half years meant NOTHING to justin and he didn't cast me... i think that says a lot on my acting "talent"... *waits to be bombarded with an angry mob (or at least comments)* lol... but it's how i feel... "because some people think i have NO talent..." quoting directly from melba...
i went to visit the drama kids today and they were in the middle of their dress rehearsal for the importance of being earnest. it looks pretty good. ryan is a really good actor and briggon is phenomenal, as usual. i really hope he gets that part on broadway. if anyone i know could do it, i know he could. he is frank sinatra reincarnated.
so, all of you need to come to the show tomorrow or friday night. happily ever once upon in jewett auditorium at seven... and it's FREE! so you have no excuses! wish me lu... umm... tell me to break a leg lol... and thanks to certain people at rehearsal... not to name any names... *coughs* prince and pied!!! *coughs* i've had grease songs stuck in my head all night lol, this one in particular...
i NEED this pin!!!
