Public post, for once.
I haven't had time to sit down and appreciate lately. With all the hustle and bustle of moving, and class and getting a new car, paying bills, it's all been a lot.
I love him. No matter how many things he does to annoy me, or piss me off, I still look at him and I can't help but smile. We've had our times. Our really, really bad times. But he's changed just as much I have to accommodate each other. He takes care of me, he sacrifices for me and he defends me, no matter what.
For once in my life, I have found someone that cares more about me than they do themselves. And I wish so badly I could be better for him. There's a lot of things he does that drive me nuts. And a lot of things he doesn't do that drive me nuts. But he's never gonna let me go without something I want or need if he can help it. If I ask for something, I usually get it.
This is the first relationship I've ever had that's not been based on time. We have forgotten 4 out of 6 anniversaries. Both of us forgot. Yesterday was our official 6 months.
There used to be so many things that would upset me. I couldn't stand to see my exes happy. I couldn't stand it when they had moved on. Now that I've gotten the chance to step away from the scene for a while, to forget it all, none of it matters. All that matters to me laying in bed taking a nap right now. Moving out of Kentucky is probably one of the best things I could have ever done. It's allowed me to look at the world and my past differently. I needed this.
I don't check up on anyone at all anymore. It doesn't matter. A few months ago I had said I was done living in the past, and apparently, that was true. Nothing that isn't happening right now means a thing to me. I learned from all these things and that's all it was. Learning.
There are so many people that don't understand this. Any of it. I am completely aware of the fact that everyone I have ever met and will ever meet is going to judge me. And at one point in my life, that really bothered me. No more. No one else sees what I see. Most of the people I know have been catered to most of their lives. Being homeless for months, being completely broke without food for months really changes a person. And most of people I know will never have to go through that. The fact that Greg and I have made it through all the things we have, and are still going strong, is absolutely incredible. The past year has been utter hell. I have seen more hard times than most people do in a lifetime. Knowing that he made it through just like I did, makes me love him even more. He's one of the strongest people I know, and so am I. We deserve to be happy, and that's finally what we're getting.
He is the most wonderful thing to ever happen to me. I will never look at anything in this life with the affection I do him.
Everything is perfect.
I love him. No matter how many things he does to annoy me, or piss me off, I still look at him and I can't help but smile. We've had our times. Our really, really bad times. But he's changed just as much I have to accommodate each other. He takes care of me, he sacrifices for me and he defends me, no matter what.
For once in my life, I have found someone that cares more about me than they do themselves. And I wish so badly I could be better for him. There's a lot of things he does that drive me nuts. And a lot of things he doesn't do that drive me nuts. But he's never gonna let me go without something I want or need if he can help it. If I ask for something, I usually get it.
This is the first relationship I've ever had that's not been based on time. We have forgotten 4 out of 6 anniversaries. Both of us forgot. Yesterday was our official 6 months.
There used to be so many things that would upset me. I couldn't stand to see my exes happy. I couldn't stand it when they had moved on. Now that I've gotten the chance to step away from the scene for a while, to forget it all, none of it matters. All that matters to me laying in bed taking a nap right now. Moving out of Kentucky is probably one of the best things I could have ever done. It's allowed me to look at the world and my past differently. I needed this.
I don't check up on anyone at all anymore. It doesn't matter. A few months ago I had said I was done living in the past, and apparently, that was true. Nothing that isn't happening right now means a thing to me. I learned from all these things and that's all it was. Learning.
There are so many people that don't understand this. Any of it. I am completely aware of the fact that everyone I have ever met and will ever meet is going to judge me. And at one point in my life, that really bothered me. No more. No one else sees what I see. Most of the people I know have been catered to most of their lives. Being homeless for months, being completely broke without food for months really changes a person. And most of people I know will never have to go through that. The fact that Greg and I have made it through all the things we have, and are still going strong, is absolutely incredible. The past year has been utter hell. I have seen more hard times than most people do in a lifetime. Knowing that he made it through just like I did, makes me love him even more. He's one of the strongest people I know, and so am I. We deserve to be happy, and that's finally what we're getting.
He is the most wonderful thing to ever happen to me. I will never look at anything in this life with the affection I do him.
Everything is perfect.