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I had so many hopes of how this year would turn out. I thought that once I got to school everything would just fall into place with my friendships, other relationships, my faith and I thought I'd feel at peace with where I am in life. My year hasn't been bad so far by any means but wheras some parts are living up to my expectations some are not. It's really coming down hard that I don't have much longer as a student and that I won't even be on campus much longer. There is so much that I wanted to accomplish that I don't feel like I've done yet. I'm not ready to leave college. I know I have a ways to go still but I'm not sure if I'm ready for what's going to come next sememster. It's the final step of my education and it's not just a job that I'm doing it's actually affecting the lives of a whole bunch of little kids. I really hope I do ok and that this is truly God's plan for me. I feel like it is but sometimes I'm just not sure.
I'd also like to get to know some people better at ISU but I don't know how I can do that when I'm student teaching and I won't be able to see them on campus. I'll still have newman but I'm not sure how much I'll be able to be there. It all depends on timing I suppose and what God wants me to do. There's one person in particular that I want to get to know but it just seems that everything is working against it so maybe I'm not meant to know them better. Which is ok I suppose.
I'd also like to get to know some people better at ISU but I don't know how I can do that when I'm student teaching and I won't be able to see them on campus. I'll still have newman but I'm not sure how much I'll be able to be there. It all depends on timing I suppose and what God wants me to do. There's one person in particular that I want to get to know but it just seems that everything is working against it so maybe I'm not meant to know them better. Which is ok I suppose.