Death as part of my live
I was in elementary school when attending my great grandma's funeral..
when the coffin was going to buried, my mom with full of tears asked me and my lil' brother who keep laughing and playing around at that time, "don't u wanna cry? aren't u feel sad?"
and I still remember our reaction back then.. "why should we?!" with confusion on our face..
few days after that, I feel that something's change.. something's different..
Now.. there's no one welcome when we visit that little house across the street..
there's no one seat on a little chair in the living room..
there's no one tell stories bout things that happen way before we born..
there's no one smile and secretly give us 10cents to buy sweets..
minus one from our list of people who give angpao on Chinese new year!!
Is it what my mom means when she asked that question?
Is it the meaning of pass away and the feeling of the people who left behind?
it's too much for a seven years old me to understand.. but there's this one thing I know.. I feel sad..
when the coffin was going to buried, my mom with full of tears asked me and my lil' brother who keep laughing and playing around at that time, "don't u wanna cry? aren't u feel sad?"
and I still remember our reaction back then.. "why should we?!" with confusion on our face..
few days after that, I feel that something's change.. something's different..
Now.. there's no one welcome when we visit that little house across the street..
there's no one seat on a little chair in the living room..
there's no one tell stories bout things that happen way before we born..
there's no one smile and secretly give us 10cents to buy sweets..
minus one from our list of people who give angpao on Chinese new year!!
Is it what my mom means when she asked that question?
Is it the meaning of pass away and the feeling of the people who left behind?
it's too much for a seven years old me to understand.. but there's this one thing I know.. I feel sad..