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I hit the downswing today. I despise these times, when I realize it's probably been approaching and I was once again too stupid to see it. I finally like my job, only to feel ripples of uncertainty as the economy fails to settle. The doomsayers come in with their coupons and cries of "are you closing? How horrible!" Worse are the people who sit and read books for hours, buying nothing and then feed me the same line about how terrible it would be if the "store" closed.
I'm not angry, I'm terrified. Unemployment is not a place I want to go. I don't feel comfortable when I'm out of work. 1. I feel lazy and unproductive, no matter what I do during the day and 2. I feel poor. All of this adds up to a big number 3. I hit downswings a lot more often.
I miss my family. I miss Minnesota and I am NEVER getting back there. Never.
Then I hate all this bitching and complaining I do and have this urge to break something. Cause a little chaos... If i go to bed, everything will be better in the morning, except for the part where it is really just tomorrow.
I'm not angry, I'm terrified. Unemployment is not a place I want to go. I don't feel comfortable when I'm out of work. 1. I feel lazy and unproductive, no matter what I do during the day and 2. I feel poor. All of this adds up to a big number 3. I hit downswings a lot more often.
I miss my family. I miss Minnesota and I am NEVER getting back there. Never.
Then I hate all this bitching and complaining I do and have this urge to break something. Cause a little chaos... If i go to bed, everything will be better in the morning, except for the part where it is really just tomorrow.