[fic] Lose Me - Eleventh Cut ~The Doomed Call~
Title: Lose Me
Pairing: Jin x Kame
Rating: NC-17
Genre - Catch Me: AU, angst, romance, smut, drama, tragedy
Beta by: my cat. okay, seriously, nobody
Disclaimer: I don't own KAT-TUN, any of its members, any other JE people. I write this for fun and for other fans of these fine folks. But don't steal my plots, mmkay? I put a great deal of time into them except for when I'm randomly spastically spitting words onto a page. But I value those too...
Summary - Catch Me: A dramatic turn in his life throws Kame into Jin's college world. Almost immediately they notice an attraction, but they spend more time clashing than not.
Summary - Lose Me: Kame and Jin still have the occasional argument but mostly they live happily together. But when someone from Kame's past shows up, will the two be able to deal?
Warning: While "Catch Me" part is more towards the fluffy end of the scale at times, the other three parts have such things as drugs and murder and rape and all the fun parts of a bad neighborhood in a big city. Oh, and character death(s).
On my journal: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the akame_ Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the akame_fanfics Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the kattun_fanfics Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
A/N: Here you go! It's a bit early but the hubby's coming home tonight so I will be too busy to post it later.
Lose Me
Eleventh Cut ~The Doomed Call~
It took about an hour for Jin and Yamapi to check all of the campus message boards. Hopefully, they got all of the flyers and Kame would never learn about the website.
The way back to Yamapi’s room went right through the common room and Jin was surprised to find Kame asleep on the couch. “Kazu-chan!” he exclaimed as he rushed to Kame’s side, completely forgetting Yamapi.
Kame stirred slowly awake. “Jin…?”
“I’m here, silly.”
“Oh, Jin, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Back in the room, I…”
A cough from Yamapi reminded Jin he was there. Kame’s hand flew to his mouth; apparently he’d been so intent on apologizing that he hadn’t even noticed Yamapi.
“No need to explain. Are you okay?” Jin interjected quickly.
Kame nodded. “I brought your key. I found it on the floor.” He pulled it out of his pocket.
“Will you be okay for a bit longer, either here or in the room? Yamapi needs me for a bit.”
Kame nodded again. “I’ll just go back to the room for now. I think I saw some food on the end table…”
Jin forced himself to smile broadly. “I brought that for you earlier. You were, um, busy with your homework so I left it for you. Thanks for the key.” He kissed Kame softly and then whispered, “We can talk in a bit, okay? In private. You don’t have to say anything in front of Pi-chan.”
Then, louder, “You look beat, Kazu. Maybe you should get some sleep when you’re done eating, nee?”
And then Kame headed off in the direction of their room, while Jin and Yamapi towards Yamapi’s room.
+++
The first thing Kame noticed when he opened the door was a piece of paper on the floor, an internet address scrawled hastily across it. Where had it come from? Had Jin dropped it earlier? Had someone slipped it under the door? Kame didn’t remember seeing it on his way out earlier, but that didn’t really mean much at the moment.
Picking it up, he also grabbed one of the bento boxes off the table and took everything to the desk. As he was eating, he booted up the computer and then typed in the URL…
… and then the chopsticks he had been holding clattered across the desk as he dropped them in horror.
+++
Once they made it back to Yamapi’s room, Yamapi all but shoved Jin down to sit in the desk chair and then sat himself on the foot of his bed.
“Okay, flyers done. Words now. What the hell is going on?”
“Is there any way I can get you to drop this? It feels like I’m betraying Kazu’s trust, talking about this. I mean, he never explicitly said not to talk about it, but…”
“You feel like YOU are betraying HIS trust?” Yamapi asked, confused.
“Please drop this."
Yamapi shook his head. “You’re my friend. Well, you both are. But if I had to decide, it would be you. We’ve been friends for years. Some friend I’d be if I didn’t look out for you. So talk.”
“The time you see in the pictures and the video, Ryo drugged him.”
“What? You can’t be serious!” Outrage spread rapidly across Yamapi’s face. “Wait, what did you mean by ‘the time you see’? There were other times?”
“I’m not sure how many. Anyway, at first, I thought Kame cheated on me. But I found out the truth two days later, though not from Kame. Kame blames himself for everything and I blamed him for everything, too, so he wasn’t trying to defend himself. I think he even now blames himself… No, I found out another way. And once I knew the truth, once I knew that Kame didn’t… that Ryo… Well, I went looking for Kame and I found him in our room in the bathroom. He had just the hot water running and he had scrubbed himself so hard he was bleeding. He was completely freaking out. But the next morning, he was still hot and he was delirious and he was frantically trying to apologize. He may have been out of his mind, Pi, but he wasn’t lying. When he said he hadn’t wanted Ryo, not ever, I believe him. He was hurting too much and way too out of it to be lying.”
“Anyway, I took him to the hospital. Doc said he was exhausted and dehydrated and hadn’t eaten in days. Since then, I’ve worked to have Ryo’s class schedule redone to keep him away from Kazu and I also broke into his dorm room to steal the video tape and the folder with the screenshots from the video. Kame and I went and burned them as soon as we could.”
“If he finds out that the photos and video aren’t gone… I don’t know what that will do to him. He’s still hurting, Pi-chan. He’s hurting in some way I can’t help him.” Jin pounded his fist hard on the desk. “I don’t know what to do for him… He just freaked out when I got back with lunch. It was like he didn’t see me at all and I don’t even know why. He seemed happy and then suddenly he was terrified, even of me.”
Jin could hold back his tears no longer. He’d never felt this powerless before… and this was the time it actually mattered. His Kazu-chan needed him but there was nothing he could do. He put his face in his hands and wept.
+++
Kame ran. He ran as fast as he could, flinging himself across campus and then beyond. He had no clue where he was heading and, honestly, he didn’t care. He just wasn’t safe. Not even the locked door of their room had kept Ryo out, thanks to the internet. And everyone had seen. That’s why people had been staring; he hadn’t imagined it after all.
Ryo had even found someone to buy it all. Some other person he didn’t know seeing his humiliation for the rest of their life.
How had this happened? They burned everything! Kame remembered throwing match after match into the hole, destroying it all! Had Jin lied? Was that actually the right video? Kame hadn’t wanted to watch it to check. He just took Jin at his word.
When he finally stopped running to catch his breath, he found himself at the edge of the park. So that’s where he had been instinctively heading…
He walked the rest of the way to the secret spot Jin shared with him. If it wasn’t safe there, then there wasn’t a single spot on the whole planet that was. When he got there, he lay down on his side on the cool grass and softly cried, which was all he had strength to do.
+++
There was nothing Jin could do to prevent the sale and he just didn’t have enough money to buy it himself. The auction closed and that was that. At least (assuming Ryo hadn’t lied) everything would be removed from the internet after the money changed hands.
Yamapi promised to keep checking, to make sure the site got taken down, so that Jin could go check on Kame.
But something wasn’t right. As Jin approached the room, he found the door standing wide open. Kame was nowhere to be seen. There was food spilled all over the floor near the desk as well as on the chair and the desk itself. And that’s when Jin noticed the picture of Kame that dominated the computer monitor. On the desk lay one of the flyers.
Jin saw red. He couldn’t remember how he got from point A to point B but he was suddenly pounding on Ryo’s door as hard as he could, shouting curses and demanding Ryo come outside to face him. He was barely aware of the growing crowd of other dorm residents who stopped to stare.
Ryo’s roommate answered the door. “Hey, what gives?”
Growling, Jin shouted, “Where is that low-life, shit-faced, manipulative, soon-to-be-dead fucktard…”
The roommate waved his hand in front of his face. “He’s not here. I haven’t seen him since first thing this…”
Jin didn’t stick around. He had to find Kame before Ryo did. He started running through the halls and when he did not find Kame anywhere in the dorm, he widened the search to include the rest of campus.
Please, Jin prayed, let him be okay.
But four more hours and the drafting of Yamapi, Koki, Maru, and Junno into the search still did not lead to Kame. Jin wanted to keep searching until he fainted from sheer exhaustion but his four friends wouldn’t let him. They dragged him back to the dorm and made him eat.
“No, I have to keep looking for him. I have to!”
“Not tonight. If you don’t get some sleep, you won’t be any good to him.” And to make sure he did, they took turns guarding the way out of his room.
Kame had not returned by the next morning. Jin was beside himself with worry. He kept trying Kame’s cell phone but not once did he get a response. Was he just hiding somewhere? Was he hurt? Had Ryo found him?
Why wouldn’t he answer his phone? Did he even have it on him? It wasn’t in their room…
Eleven a.m. passed with no word.
Then, around one that afternoon, Kame finally called back from his cell phone. “Kazu!” Jin cried. “Where are you, Kazu?”
“Stop looking for me.”
“… what? Are you okay? What’s wrong? Your voice…”
A pause. “Stop looking for me. I don’t want to see you anymore.”
Kame sounded exhausted.
“Is Ryo… are you being forced to say this?”
“Goodbye, Jin.”
And Kame hung up.
Jin tried frantically to call back but it just kept ringing. He tried again. And again. And then, to his horror, he found his number had been blocked by Kame’s phone.
He practically flew out of his room with intentions of borrowing as many phones as it took. But none of their friends’ phones could get an answer either (though their numbers weren’t blocked).
After three hours of trying to get Kame back on the line, Ueda came to get him.
“You stay clear of me, you…” Jin went to berate him, but then halfway through, he got a better idea. “Your phone! Your phone! I need your phone!”
“After. I have something I think you should see…”
“No time… no time…” Jin wept.
Ueda took him by the wrist and dragged him after him. “I know I haven’t given you a reason to recently, but please trust me when I say this is important.”
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
The story continues:
Twelfth Cut ~Destruction of the Grove~
A/N: Uh-oh. LOL don't kill me. Still have that severe fireman's axe allergy.
But, yeah, one more cut on "Lose Me" left and then we move on to the next arc.
Pairing: Jin x Kame
Rating: NC-17
Genre - Catch Me: AU, angst, romance, smut, drama, tragedy
Beta by: my cat. okay, seriously, nobody
Disclaimer: I don't own KAT-TUN, any of its members, any other JE people. I write this for fun and for other fans of these fine folks. But don't steal my plots, mmkay? I put a great deal of time into them except for when I'm randomly spastically spitting words onto a page. But I value those too...
Summary - Catch Me: A dramatic turn in his life throws Kame into Jin's college world. Almost immediately they notice an attraction, but they spend more time clashing than not.
Summary - Lose Me: Kame and Jin still have the occasional argument but mostly they live happily together. But when someone from Kame's past shows up, will the two be able to deal?
Warning: While "Catch Me" part is more towards the fluffy end of the scale at times, the other three parts have such things as drugs and murder and rape and all the fun parts of a bad neighborhood in a big city. Oh, and character death(s).
On my journal: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the akame_ Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the akame_fanfics Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the kattun_fanfics Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
A/N: Here you go! It's a bit early but the hubby's coming home tonight so I will be too busy to post it later.
Lose Me
Eleventh Cut ~The Doomed Call~
It took about an hour for Jin and Yamapi to check all of the campus message boards. Hopefully, they got all of the flyers and Kame would never learn about the website.
The way back to Yamapi’s room went right through the common room and Jin was surprised to find Kame asleep on the couch. “Kazu-chan!” he exclaimed as he rushed to Kame’s side, completely forgetting Yamapi.
Kame stirred slowly awake. “Jin…?”
“I’m here, silly.”
“Oh, Jin, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Back in the room, I…”
A cough from Yamapi reminded Jin he was there. Kame’s hand flew to his mouth; apparently he’d been so intent on apologizing that he hadn’t even noticed Yamapi.
“No need to explain. Are you okay?” Jin interjected quickly.
Kame nodded. “I brought your key. I found it on the floor.” He pulled it out of his pocket.
“Will you be okay for a bit longer, either here or in the room? Yamapi needs me for a bit.”
Kame nodded again. “I’ll just go back to the room for now. I think I saw some food on the end table…”
Jin forced himself to smile broadly. “I brought that for you earlier. You were, um, busy with your homework so I left it for you. Thanks for the key.” He kissed Kame softly and then whispered, “We can talk in a bit, okay? In private. You don’t have to say anything in front of Pi-chan.”
Then, louder, “You look beat, Kazu. Maybe you should get some sleep when you’re done eating, nee?”
And then Kame headed off in the direction of their room, while Jin and Yamapi towards Yamapi’s room.
+++
The first thing Kame noticed when he opened the door was a piece of paper on the floor, an internet address scrawled hastily across it. Where had it come from? Had Jin dropped it earlier? Had someone slipped it under the door? Kame didn’t remember seeing it on his way out earlier, but that didn’t really mean much at the moment.
Picking it up, he also grabbed one of the bento boxes off the table and took everything to the desk. As he was eating, he booted up the computer and then typed in the URL…
… and then the chopsticks he had been holding clattered across the desk as he dropped them in horror.
+++
Once they made it back to Yamapi’s room, Yamapi all but shoved Jin down to sit in the desk chair and then sat himself on the foot of his bed.
“Okay, flyers done. Words now. What the hell is going on?”
“Is there any way I can get you to drop this? It feels like I’m betraying Kazu’s trust, talking about this. I mean, he never explicitly said not to talk about it, but…”
“You feel like YOU are betraying HIS trust?” Yamapi asked, confused.
“Please drop this."
Yamapi shook his head. “You’re my friend. Well, you both are. But if I had to decide, it would be you. We’ve been friends for years. Some friend I’d be if I didn’t look out for you. So talk.”
“The time you see in the pictures and the video, Ryo drugged him.”
“What? You can’t be serious!” Outrage spread rapidly across Yamapi’s face. “Wait, what did you mean by ‘the time you see’? There were other times?”
“I’m not sure how many. Anyway, at first, I thought Kame cheated on me. But I found out the truth two days later, though not from Kame. Kame blames himself for everything and I blamed him for everything, too, so he wasn’t trying to defend himself. I think he even now blames himself… No, I found out another way. And once I knew the truth, once I knew that Kame didn’t… that Ryo… Well, I went looking for Kame and I found him in our room in the bathroom. He had just the hot water running and he had scrubbed himself so hard he was bleeding. He was completely freaking out. But the next morning, he was still hot and he was delirious and he was frantically trying to apologize. He may have been out of his mind, Pi, but he wasn’t lying. When he said he hadn’t wanted Ryo, not ever, I believe him. He was hurting too much and way too out of it to be lying.”
“Anyway, I took him to the hospital. Doc said he was exhausted and dehydrated and hadn’t eaten in days. Since then, I’ve worked to have Ryo’s class schedule redone to keep him away from Kazu and I also broke into his dorm room to steal the video tape and the folder with the screenshots from the video. Kame and I went and burned them as soon as we could.”
“If he finds out that the photos and video aren’t gone… I don’t know what that will do to him. He’s still hurting, Pi-chan. He’s hurting in some way I can’t help him.” Jin pounded his fist hard on the desk. “I don’t know what to do for him… He just freaked out when I got back with lunch. It was like he didn’t see me at all and I don’t even know why. He seemed happy and then suddenly he was terrified, even of me.”
Jin could hold back his tears no longer. He’d never felt this powerless before… and this was the time it actually mattered. His Kazu-chan needed him but there was nothing he could do. He put his face in his hands and wept.
+++
Kame ran. He ran as fast as he could, flinging himself across campus and then beyond. He had no clue where he was heading and, honestly, he didn’t care. He just wasn’t safe. Not even the locked door of their room had kept Ryo out, thanks to the internet. And everyone had seen. That’s why people had been staring; he hadn’t imagined it after all.
Ryo had even found someone to buy it all. Some other person he didn’t know seeing his humiliation for the rest of their life.
How had this happened? They burned everything! Kame remembered throwing match after match into the hole, destroying it all! Had Jin lied? Was that actually the right video? Kame hadn’t wanted to watch it to check. He just took Jin at his word.
When he finally stopped running to catch his breath, he found himself at the edge of the park. So that’s where he had been instinctively heading…
He walked the rest of the way to the secret spot Jin shared with him. If it wasn’t safe there, then there wasn’t a single spot on the whole planet that was. When he got there, he lay down on his side on the cool grass and softly cried, which was all he had strength to do.
+++
There was nothing Jin could do to prevent the sale and he just didn’t have enough money to buy it himself. The auction closed and that was that. At least (assuming Ryo hadn’t lied) everything would be removed from the internet after the money changed hands.
Yamapi promised to keep checking, to make sure the site got taken down, so that Jin could go check on Kame.
But something wasn’t right. As Jin approached the room, he found the door standing wide open. Kame was nowhere to be seen. There was food spilled all over the floor near the desk as well as on the chair and the desk itself. And that’s when Jin noticed the picture of Kame that dominated the computer monitor. On the desk lay one of the flyers.
Jin saw red. He couldn’t remember how he got from point A to point B but he was suddenly pounding on Ryo’s door as hard as he could, shouting curses and demanding Ryo come outside to face him. He was barely aware of the growing crowd of other dorm residents who stopped to stare.
Ryo’s roommate answered the door. “Hey, what gives?”
Growling, Jin shouted, “Where is that low-life, shit-faced, manipulative, soon-to-be-dead fucktard…”
The roommate waved his hand in front of his face. “He’s not here. I haven’t seen him since first thing this…”
Jin didn’t stick around. He had to find Kame before Ryo did. He started running through the halls and when he did not find Kame anywhere in the dorm, he widened the search to include the rest of campus.
Please, Jin prayed, let him be okay.
But four more hours and the drafting of Yamapi, Koki, Maru, and Junno into the search still did not lead to Kame. Jin wanted to keep searching until he fainted from sheer exhaustion but his four friends wouldn’t let him. They dragged him back to the dorm and made him eat.
“No, I have to keep looking for him. I have to!”
“Not tonight. If you don’t get some sleep, you won’t be any good to him.” And to make sure he did, they took turns guarding the way out of his room.
Kame had not returned by the next morning. Jin was beside himself with worry. He kept trying Kame’s cell phone but not once did he get a response. Was he just hiding somewhere? Was he hurt? Had Ryo found him?
Why wouldn’t he answer his phone? Did he even have it on him? It wasn’t in their room…
Eleven a.m. passed with no word.
Then, around one that afternoon, Kame finally called back from his cell phone. “Kazu!” Jin cried. “Where are you, Kazu?”
“Stop looking for me.”
“… what? Are you okay? What’s wrong? Your voice…”
A pause. “Stop looking for me. I don’t want to see you anymore.”
Kame sounded exhausted.
“Is Ryo… are you being forced to say this?”
“Goodbye, Jin.”
And Kame hung up.
Jin tried frantically to call back but it just kept ringing. He tried again. And again. And then, to his horror, he found his number had been blocked by Kame’s phone.
He practically flew out of his room with intentions of borrowing as many phones as it took. But none of their friends’ phones could get an answer either (though their numbers weren’t blocked).
After three hours of trying to get Kame back on the line, Ueda came to get him.
“You stay clear of me, you…” Jin went to berate him, but then halfway through, he got a better idea. “Your phone! Your phone! I need your phone!”
“After. I have something I think you should see…”
“No time… no time…” Jin wept.
Ueda took him by the wrist and dragged him after him. “I know I haven’t given you a reason to recently, but please trust me when I say this is important.”
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
The story continues:
Twelfth Cut ~Destruction of the Grove~
A/N: Uh-oh. LOL don't kill me. Still have that severe fireman's axe allergy.
But, yeah, one more cut on "Lose Me" left and then we move on to the next arc.