What a day with the Worst Case Scenario !!
What a month! What a day!
Yeah and today an unexpected thing happened.
How do I feel? Before this I never give a damn about it,
but today I feel sad and worried when I heard about it.
It's like "Ck, this is bad. Worst case ever."
I'm sure there are some people out there who share my feeling at the moment.
I'm starting to question my plan.
Maybe I should reconsider it again or even cancel it.
Suddenly I feel not safe.
I need peace of mind, but seems like peace is a very luxury thing nowadays.
And since next year and the years to come look even blur than before,
I don't have the courage to make a big plan.
There's nothing much to do, it's not like I can change it.
All that I want now is spending time as much as I can
with people close to me and with all the things I love.
Creating peace in my own personal space while praying
that the peace out there will stay in this planet.
At least good things happened yesterday ｡^ ^｡
Finally I could talk to my 'daughter', been a long time
since I could talk to her. Need inspiration from her, she is the only
one who can cope with my weirdness and she has this vast fantasy in her brain,
something I lack of. Miss her so bad and miss her bedtime story also.
I also talked to a friend, another person who understand my weird way of thinking.
Even thought she just can't understand why I like all the things I like,
because to her, it is too complicated -- she likes simplicity.
If my daughter is a dreamy person then this friend of mine is more a realist.
But still she is one of some people who I could talk freely and
exchange idea about all the weird things.
And they are people who I can get a nice feedback for any project am in.
Need more people like them,I like sharing ideas and interest, but sometime
I'm just too timid to make more. Silly me.
Should always Thank God for every single good thing that happened in my life.
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