Some changes that need to be made
Today, at work I came to realize something, something very important I’ve been slowly coming to terms with. For one, I need to quit star bucks all I do there is just get flack but that is my own fault for not trying harder to appear smarter. In reality, I’m surrounded by big egos so I shrunk myself a bit so that it would be easier to fit in, be an ear, a smile, a dopy laugh, but I’m sick of it.
When I tell them I only want to work 15-20 hours or even 3-2 days it is because I am sick of them. Not because I don’t want to work, I just don’t want to work -there- with them. I don’t want to deal with it, in the end it just makes me tired. Its to a point I just don’t want to try anymore and frankly its just coffee. It is time for me to move on with my life. I will not allow myself to be chained down. I never have and honestly never will.
The second thing I realized is that, the one I’m waiting for isn’t coming. For a long time I thought if I waited and looked, that I would find him. My heart would lead me to him, but its been over 6 years since I made that vow and still no where to be found. I recently cut my hair, this is a start of a new me. I’m not going to wait any longer, I’m no longer going to be weak. I’m going to grow up and stop wishing; instead I’m going to make my wish into a reality.
this is after all my reslove.
When I tell them I only want to work 15-20 hours or even 3-2 days it is because I am sick of them. Not because I don’t want to work, I just don’t want to work -there- with them. I don’t want to deal with it, in the end it just makes me tired. Its to a point I just don’t want to try anymore and frankly its just coffee. It is time for me to move on with my life. I will not allow myself to be chained down. I never have and honestly never will.
The second thing I realized is that, the one I’m waiting for isn’t coming. For a long time I thought if I waited and looked, that I would find him. My heart would lead me to him, but its been over 6 years since I made that vow and still no where to be found. I recently cut my hair, this is a start of a new me. I’m not going to wait any longer, I’m no longer going to be weak. I’m going to grow up and stop wishing; instead I’m going to make my wish into a reality.
this is after all my reslove.