Job Search
So after years of griping about being unhappy about what I'm doing (credit card collections for a bank) I'm finally looking for a new job. Kinda sorta...tossing off resumes here and there. Still not entirely sure what I want to do. Something in cubicle-land that involves organizing, paperwork, research....and not collections. I've tried to find a different position inside of my own company but I've not been able to find anything that doesn't involve taking a big paycut, so I'm looking outside. It's something I'm very apprehensive about. Never handled change terribly well, especially when I've been with the same company for eight and a half years. But I'm miserable doing what I'm doing so it'll be better for my health, physical and mental, if I find something else.
Artwise I'm in a ditch. I've almost completly lost confidence in my ability to ever draw anything good. It's the sort of self destructive deep blue funk from which it is very hard to get out. I'd like to take art classes at some point to bone up on my skills, but it'd help better if I had somebody I could get together with and draw stuff in an environment where there are minimal distractions. Fat chance of that happening.
Life is still good overall, I just wish I wasn't such a procrastinating, worthless, lump of anxiety sometimes.
So, enough grumblings and griping for today.
Artwise I'm in a ditch. I've almost completly lost confidence in my ability to ever draw anything good. It's the sort of self destructive deep blue funk from which it is very hard to get out. I'd like to take art classes at some point to bone up on my skills, but it'd help better if I had somebody I could get together with and draw stuff in an environment where there are minimal distractions. Fat chance of that happening.
Life is still good overall, I just wish I wasn't such a procrastinating, worthless, lump of anxiety sometimes.
So, enough grumblings and griping for today.