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I need a computer in my room again. Mark (Theory teacher) got all pissy cause some of us, including myself, didnt have his assignment printed out, he gave us this lecture on how we have to check blackboard and our email. Pwtttt on him. If he wanted us to have assignments he should print them out himself and give them to us.
I've been really really drained lately. I need to find some exercises to get some energy back.I cant keep taking naps to try and put my body back into balance.
Balance. heh. Thats my word of the week.
I'm excited about combos. Mike is tired of hearing me say it so I'll say it to everyone else. IM EXCITED ABOUT COMBOS!! The new jazz instructor wants to put together small combos of students so that we can play like old jazz charts. Should be much much fun.
I'm also excited to get to work with Erik again. I think that I've improved in my playing since last semester and I'm curious to see how far I can go this semester. It will be hard without Matt being by my side but I think that this will be good for me because I'm going to have to grow without a lot of help. So much I rely on everyone else to give me a hand or for someone to show me exactly how to do something before I'll attempt it. This will force me to branch out a bit and hopefully I will prosper.
The SAI girls want to take me shopping and put makeup on me and stuff...its hard to explain to most of them that I dont have the money to do that type stuff. It's like they hear me say that but they dont really believe it. Most of them never had to worry about money, they couldnt budget if their life depended on it. ::sighs:: Ah well, suppose it makes me a stronger person.
So many people didnt last through the summer, you come back to school and you hear all these sob stories about the guy turning into a jerk or he was cheating etc...it makes me feel good to think how great Mike and I have it. What makes it funny though is that it all boils down to one determining factor, conversation. Mike and I talk and that is what has saved us whenever we were having a rough spot. I feel lucky.
I saw a quote today that disturbed me, "If you cut my throat, with my last dying breath, I would apologize for bleeding on your shirt" I dont think I have all the words in there but thats what it said. It didnt say who it was by, maybe the girl who wrote it on her dry erase board came up with it, I dont know but it made me think and wonder if thats what I seemed like when I used to apologize for every move that I made. I'm glad that I've pretty much broken that habit.
I think I got lucky with my roommate, she seems to generally know when she needs to leave the room. For this, I am greatful.
I need to call woodwind and brasswind.
I'm tired of being self conscience.
I still really really want to move.
I think I just realized why I've been so out of it.
I love my Mike.
I've been really really drained lately. I need to find some exercises to get some energy back.I cant keep taking naps to try and put my body back into balance.
Balance. heh. Thats my word of the week.
I'm excited about combos. Mike is tired of hearing me say it so I'll say it to everyone else. IM EXCITED ABOUT COMBOS!! The new jazz instructor wants to put together small combos of students so that we can play like old jazz charts. Should be much much fun.
I'm also excited to get to work with Erik again. I think that I've improved in my playing since last semester and I'm curious to see how far I can go this semester. It will be hard without Matt being by my side but I think that this will be good for me because I'm going to have to grow without a lot of help. So much I rely on everyone else to give me a hand or for someone to show me exactly how to do something before I'll attempt it. This will force me to branch out a bit and hopefully I will prosper.
The SAI girls want to take me shopping and put makeup on me and stuff...its hard to explain to most of them that I dont have the money to do that type stuff. It's like they hear me say that but they dont really believe it. Most of them never had to worry about money, they couldnt budget if their life depended on it. ::sighs:: Ah well, suppose it makes me a stronger person.
So many people didnt last through the summer, you come back to school and you hear all these sob stories about the guy turning into a jerk or he was cheating etc...it makes me feel good to think how great Mike and I have it. What makes it funny though is that it all boils down to one determining factor, conversation. Mike and I talk and that is what has saved us whenever we were having a rough spot. I feel lucky.
I saw a quote today that disturbed me, "If you cut my throat, with my last dying breath, I would apologize for bleeding on your shirt" I dont think I have all the words in there but thats what it said. It didnt say who it was by, maybe the girl who wrote it on her dry erase board came up with it, I dont know but it made me think and wonder if thats what I seemed like when I used to apologize for every move that I made. I'm glad that I've pretty much broken that habit.
I think I got lucky with my roommate, she seems to generally know when she needs to leave the room. For this, I am greatful.
I need to call woodwind and brasswind.
I'm tired of being self conscience.
I still really really want to move.
I think I just realized why I've been so out of it.
I love my Mike.