this might come out long.. eff ur friends page :D hahah
writey writey writey writey.. Camille
some weirdo kinda hit me up on aim..:/ from okcupid.com. some guy..i had to block him with theeee quickness.. man it was crazii... lol.. no sense.. i was just like riiiight
why can't some sexii intelligent women hit me up or something.. what the hell :/
mmmaaaannn... feelings for Bianca.. lol.. i dont have the heart to tell her what i want to do to her.. lol.. i saved her picture as my wallpaper for my cell phone.. mannnn...honestly everytime i look @ that picture..i want to kiss her nose or something.. lick her cheek or something.. lol.. her lips are all pink..lol her nose and cheeks look like she was outside while it was cold... hehe i just want to huggg her.. and be allll blah.. lol.just fall in her arms or something and just stay that way..just to inhale her and things like that.... maybe its just me.. but everytime i look at that picture she gets more and more attractive..
BUTTTTT..
when i talk to her -sigh- it doesn't work in her favor. :/.. lol she generally says stupid stuff.. or she talks in this REALL babyish voice ::rolls eyes:: ugh..whatever.. thats ANNOYING.. sometimes i think she's trying to mock me. but i can't help how i talk..i dont even think i sound the way some people say i do.. so wth..lol
but i'm still feeling like i might like her or something.. maybe i should try to make a date with her or something..:/ arg.. i'm SO fucking lonely.am i reallii gettin this desperate..
ah :/ didn't i swear off younger girls like around the Angelique era.. argg..i soo thought i did.. lol i need to have a talk with this hoe..lol *yes i called Bianca a hoe* and explain a few things to her.. i'm too grown and sexxxii 4 her. lmao
OMG i just need to be pampered.... and not by some hoity-toity spa.. lol but by someone who loves me *lol even my mom* i just need a back rub and a leg massage..... hmm i need someone to touch me.. i haven't had any human contact since i've been back home.. wow..amazing lol cuz me and my parents dont hug or whatever..lmao.. and anywhere i've been has been with them..lmao.. CRAZZII.. now i just want to go over Bianca's house just so she can massage me or something
Random Thought:
i'm flaky.. lol i was in denial about that before. but i've realized that i am. i dont trust people.. and sometimes it sounds like a good idea.. but then when it comes down to it. i realize that i dont want to be around these people.. thats why i flake out.. :D
OMG why am i trying to count down the mins to when Bianca wakes up... i mean i know she's not up until like 6 45 but i want to call her right now :/ its sad.. I DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER!!! GRRR lol. she said she's not going to wait on me forever too..soooo i guess..i'm ready to just tell her. "WHAT THE HELL EVER" lol..move on..
sorry this is so long and lacking substance and meaning. lol i just need to write.. i have so much shit on my mind..
btw..i can sing... i'm just too shy to let anyone hear me..:D i think i got my skillz from my dad.. he has madd singing skillz :D
so.. sadly i'll never be on American Idol.. :/
<3
Camille