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trying to be bleak listening to toro y moi saturday love, kind of hard. like trying to punch a kid crying butt i love you dadddy. just focus and do it.
jesus i dont even know
writing stuff down makes it more real than i want to aknowledge. i go away for ages when things are great and then come back to update the fake internet world of how bad things are.
i wa with a girl (was i know but wa kind of works) for two months. then she went away for a long time as they do. total betty draper vibes. i told her people used to paint girls like her on the side of planes. i got home and she'd been cooking me a damn roast, ON THE TABLE when i got in from work. i'm not into the whole housewife thing but yeah, when its a surprise out of nowhere it hits.
work is totally fucked, its like the bit on a film where you get half way along the rope bridge and the bad guy comes along at the other end with a cutlass and a grin. all you have is the bridge but its going down.
so she is away till the end of summer doing whatever. and im smashed, i feel like my brains are the gold and silver tickets in the crystal dome because i could be fucking redundant at some point this year. you can think it all day but being told, i dont know how i'd take that.
jesus i dont even know
writing stuff down makes it more real than i want to aknowledge. i go away for ages when things are great and then come back to update the fake internet world of how bad things are.
i wa with a girl (was i know but wa kind of works) for two months. then she went away for a long time as they do. total betty draper vibes. i told her people used to paint girls like her on the side of planes. i got home and she'd been cooking me a damn roast, ON THE TABLE when i got in from work. i'm not into the whole housewife thing but yeah, when its a surprise out of nowhere it hits.
work is totally fucked, its like the bit on a film where you get half way along the rope bridge and the bad guy comes along at the other end with a cutlass and a grin. all you have is the bridge but its going down.
so she is away till the end of summer doing whatever. and im smashed, i feel like my brains are the gold and silver tickets in the crystal dome because i could be fucking redundant at some point this year. you can think it all day but being told, i dont know how i'd take that.