The only loli who seems to want to stay
Guys, who ever may be reading this, or any one who even just manages to come across it- I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm going to be the only loli left who actually wants to stay in here frilly pink tea house with macaroons and tea party shoes. I'm scared that I'm going to be the only one who's left with the fawn on her hem and lace on her sleeves. I'm afraid I'll have no one left after the newbies figure out the next trend. It seems like I was the last one to know and came to the party after the casserole went cold and the people are passed out on the front lawn. I came in at the end of the mega sugar phase, which was what I truly have stitched into the seams of my heart. Its all mori-girl now and muted colors, which I think, are beautiful but I want pink plain, not that stupid dusty pink with the knit sweater! I don’t mean to dis it, I just people weren’t going so rabid over it. Was it always like this before I came along? I'm very young and I look up to my older lolitas for help. Not the loli mentors type help but just helping find MY identity as a Lolita.
What’s going to happen to my sugar induced princess life. I don’t want Edwardian. I don’t want rococo. I don’t want FREAKING MORI! I feel like the red panda. Everyone is talking about me and how amazing I am then BAM! Polar icecaps melt and the polar bear is all that. I really am afraid of what’s going to happen. I want to be able to share my loli with everyone else but its hard when you haven’t even got two skirts and they have a whole arsenal they're giving up to pursue this new queen of the forest style. I feel like I'm always going to be five steps behind the lovely ex-perfectly curled haired, print wearing, head cake wearing, now toned down, ballet flats, long skirt wearing, wavy haired lolis. I never even was able to grow my hair long enough to give it barrel curls, and now by the time I do all the lolitas will reply in a disgusted voice "What an ugly girl. She's not doing the style right! That skirt is older than my grandmother, why does she bother with such an old outdated fad that’s so ugly. I don’t know why we ever like that style." So to my fellow lolis, even though I will continue to wear even if I look like an ita, - It was a pleasure having tea.