Nervousnessssssssss
Everything is all a bit crazy lately, I mean, seriously worked up and wierd. Urgh, making my head spin, and then I start feeling sick, and it all goes completely crazy! Heheh, ok, calm...
I've been offered auditions and interviews by DeMontfort university and Coventry. The workshop and interview at DeMontfort actually look and sound like it will be really fun, and something I will be able to get my teeth into.
Coventry on the other hand... I have to give a 3 minute monologue and then have an interview... next week... I'm absolutely crapping myself. It isn't something I really want to do, but if it's going to mean that I might get a place at a really good university for the courses I want, then I'm going to have to do it.
I just don't want to.
What if I go to the audition and I'm really awful? I mean, auditions have never been my strongest points, even relaxed, group workshop ones. They are the only time I ever get any form of stage-fright, which can't be good. And it annoys me that I have to audition, when I actually want to produce theatre, rather than act in it, but I suppose it goes without saying that I have to be half decent at performing. Just kind of stressing I guess...
The texts for 4.48 Psychocis finally came through, which is nice, because now we all have it in front of us, we've really started pulling it all together, and it's really cool to see Sam and Gemma get so excited about doing it. We've started picking our sections, and it seems to be going well, but I guess our performance will let it show whether it worked or not, lol.
Media is going well now that I actaully have conrete ideas of what I'm going to produce, lol! I've got permission for all of my pictures, and I have my article all written, I just need the people to turn up to the drama studio when I want to take the photographs! Grr!! How rude?! You give people call sheets, times, work around them, and make sure it's all ok. You even put it off by TWO WEEKS so that you can get in all the people you need at the same time. What happens? They don't fucking turn up! Buggers...
I've been really crazily emotional lately as well. It's probably mostly due to stress about university and a nasty impending future, but I just seem to be quickly accumulating emotional baggage by the boat-load. Ah well, it'll sort itself out I'm sure. I never like to get involved with my own problems (which I'm sure doesn't help at all), I like to believe that everything happens to me because it does, rather than any other reason. Which makes me a hypocrite really because I always tell people to do things about their problems. Oh well, lol.
Sophie asked me to be in some of her film for Media. It's quite cool, although wierd that I have to be sad and bullied all the time, but cool nonetheless! Should be really fun to do the rest of it, and I want to see it all when it's done, because it's a really good idea they have all come up with.
That about wraps it up I think...
Take care and LURVE,
C
xxx
I've been offered auditions and interviews by DeMontfort university and Coventry. The workshop and interview at DeMontfort actually look and sound like it will be really fun, and something I will be able to get my teeth into.
Coventry on the other hand... I have to give a 3 minute monologue and then have an interview... next week... I'm absolutely crapping myself. It isn't something I really want to do, but if it's going to mean that I might get a place at a really good university for the courses I want, then I'm going to have to do it.
I just don't want to.
What if I go to the audition and I'm really awful? I mean, auditions have never been my strongest points, even relaxed, group workshop ones. They are the only time I ever get any form of stage-fright, which can't be good. And it annoys me that I have to audition, when I actually want to produce theatre, rather than act in it, but I suppose it goes without saying that I have to be half decent at performing. Just kind of stressing I guess...
The texts for 4.48 Psychocis finally came through, which is nice, because now we all have it in front of us, we've really started pulling it all together, and it's really cool to see Sam and Gemma get so excited about doing it. We've started picking our sections, and it seems to be going well, but I guess our performance will let it show whether it worked or not, lol.
Media is going well now that I actaully have conrete ideas of what I'm going to produce, lol! I've got permission for all of my pictures, and I have my article all written, I just need the people to turn up to the drama studio when I want to take the photographs! Grr!! How rude?! You give people call sheets, times, work around them, and make sure it's all ok. You even put it off by TWO WEEKS so that you can get in all the people you need at the same time. What happens? They don't fucking turn up! Buggers...
I've been really crazily emotional lately as well. It's probably mostly due to stress about university and a nasty impending future, but I just seem to be quickly accumulating emotional baggage by the boat-load. Ah well, it'll sort itself out I'm sure. I never like to get involved with my own problems (which I'm sure doesn't help at all), I like to believe that everything happens to me because it does, rather than any other reason. Which makes me a hypocrite really because I always tell people to do things about their problems. Oh well, lol.
Sophie asked me to be in some of her film for Media. It's quite cool, although wierd that I have to be sad and bullied all the time, but cool nonetheless! Should be really fun to do the rest of it, and I want to see it all when it's done, because it's a really good idea they have all come up with.
That about wraps it up I think...
Take care and LURVE,
C
xxx