we learn.
so last night I went up to Rollinsford to hang out with Micah.
it was a good time. we sat by the woodfire and watched part of the game and snuggled on the couch :)
something was kinda weird, though.
his parents left for a little bit to drop his brother off at his drum practice, and Micah was so sweet and cuddling with me and basically acting like he was my boyfriend.
...but when his parents were there, he was kinda acting like we never even dated.
then when his parents left the room, he'd hug me and stuff and go back to acting all cute again.
then, when I thought about it...his parents looked surprised to see me.
and when his sister and her fiance came to pick up their cat carrier, they were like "wow, long time no see?" and looked a little confused.
I'm a little suspicious?
hmm...but then again, maybe it was all in my head.
I'm pretty sure his parents like me, but part of me still wonders.
his mom showed me a wicked cute picture of Micah when he was like, 7 and in his Halloween costume...soo cute.
something just feels weird, though...like, with Casey's mom, she was the best boyfriend's mom anyone could ever hope for. she was always so sweet and loved talking to me and asked me questions...maybe I was just so used to her and having such a basically perfect relationship with her to someone new and with a totally different personality?
...who knows.
but...
I love how he always walks me out to my car and kisses me goodnight.
he gives me huge hugs, which I love.
as I was opening my car door after we said goodnight, he jumped in between me and it and bumped it shut with his butt...then smiled and gave me a huge hug and a kiss.
little things like that make me feel like he really likes me, and it makes me so happy but sad at the same time.
I was thinking about it on the way home, and if I had to choose between the confusion when I hang out with him and not hanging out with him at all...I'd rather spend as much time with him as possible. being with him makes me happy, even if it's not "official".
I don't know how to ask him what he thinks or wants in the situation, so we never talked about it.
it's gonna happen and come up eventually, but I just don't know what to say, which is weird because I usually know what to say in most situations. but this time...I'm totally clueless?
it'll all work out, though. or at least I hope it will.
it was a good time. we sat by the woodfire and watched part of the game and snuggled on the couch :)
something was kinda weird, though.
his parents left for a little bit to drop his brother off at his drum practice, and Micah was so sweet and cuddling with me and basically acting like he was my boyfriend.
...but when his parents were there, he was kinda acting like we never even dated.
then when his parents left the room, he'd hug me and stuff and go back to acting all cute again.
then, when I thought about it...his parents looked surprised to see me.
and when his sister and her fiance came to pick up their cat carrier, they were like "wow, long time no see?" and looked a little confused.
I'm a little suspicious?
hmm...but then again, maybe it was all in my head.
I'm pretty sure his parents like me, but part of me still wonders.
his mom showed me a wicked cute picture of Micah when he was like, 7 and in his Halloween costume...soo cute.
something just feels weird, though...like, with Casey's mom, she was the best boyfriend's mom anyone could ever hope for. she was always so sweet and loved talking to me and asked me questions...maybe I was just so used to her and having such a basically perfect relationship with her to someone new and with a totally different personality?
...who knows.
but...
I love how he always walks me out to my car and kisses me goodnight.
he gives me huge hugs, which I love.
as I was opening my car door after we said goodnight, he jumped in between me and it and bumped it shut with his butt...then smiled and gave me a huge hug and a kiss.
little things like that make me feel like he really likes me, and it makes me so happy but sad at the same time.
I was thinking about it on the way home, and if I had to choose between the confusion when I hang out with him and not hanging out with him at all...I'd rather spend as much time with him as possible. being with him makes me happy, even if it's not "official".
I don't know how to ask him what he thinks or wants in the situation, so we never talked about it.
it's gonna happen and come up eventually, but I just don't know what to say, which is weird because I usually know what to say in most situations. but this time...I'm totally clueless?
it'll all work out, though. or at least I hope it will.