Urg
Far be it for me to be able to pinpoint the sources to any of my "feelings", but something is amiss somewhere. I'm still trying to fight off my hypersensitivity, depression, aggresion, and stress but so far am getting next to nowhere with it. I seem fine in some settings, and totally "off" in others. There are a couple people out there that just light a fire in me causing me to think things that are not so nice, and other people I had trouble standing, seem okay. It's almost as though I seriously need to have a breakdown, but one where I am held up by someone who I feel isn't judging me. I feel like something is constantly "wrong" and I hate feeling that way. I have to MAKE myself do anything at all, including climbing out of the bed.
I remain awake all night some nights, afraid of the darkness, afraid to go to sleep while others are sleeping. Other nights I can't stay awake no matter the circumstances. I want to feel as though I belong, and often fail to feel as though I do. I'm not saying people exclude me, I know all my friends try to make me a part of everything they do, but, I still feel off in the oufield, watching most of the action. My feelings are beginning to be hurt by things I used to be able to readily ignore, I feel inadequate all the time and as though I'm a drain, in a way, on things that are happening.
I feel as though I'm waiting an answer...
I remain awake all night some nights, afraid of the darkness, afraid to go to sleep while others are sleeping. Other nights I can't stay awake no matter the circumstances. I want to feel as though I belong, and often fail to feel as though I do. I'm not saying people exclude me, I know all my friends try to make me a part of everything they do, but, I still feel off in the oufield, watching most of the action. My feelings are beginning to be hurt by things I used to be able to readily ignore, I feel inadequate all the time and as though I'm a drain, in a way, on things that are happening.
I feel as though I'm waiting an answer...