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*sings* 'Take me for what I am. Who I was meant to be. And if you give a damn, TAKE ME BABY, or leave me.'
If someone says in date speak, "I'll get back to you," doesn't that normally mean in english, "Whatever." February is teaching me both good and bad things it seems. And here I sit on Valentine's Day, pretty much alone, thinking to myself why I am. Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm a dreamer, and I look deeply into others, then I wait. Maybe my standards are much to high, or perhaps I am way too high maintenence for others. Like the opening line says though, Take me for what I am, who I was meant to be. And if you give a damn, take me baby, or leave me.
So what really am I? Well... let's knock down the locked door and take a look.
I love music and dancing. I can play bass guitar, clarinet, and wood flute, have tried my hand at writing music, have a knack for poetry, and when I had a partner for dancing could burn a hole in a dance floor. I think when I lost Shellie as a friend, I gave that part of myself up. She was my dynamic dance partner. We fed off each others' energies and knew what the other was thinking beforehand. Hard to beat that combo. When she got pregnant though our dancing ended, and I couldn't find another partner who was as dynamic as her although I have looked. This is outlying though. Dig a little deeper...
I was an artist. When your art teacher requests you to go into an advanced art class, most would be flattered and yet I was apathetic about it. I did some wonderful work when I was feeling the vibe but occasionally I would drift out of it back into a world of day dreams. I heard from someone later on my teacher was still using some of my artwork as examples and at one point I unknowingly had some work hanging in the CoMMA in Morganton. Very interesting to say the least. I've also had requested of me to paint some other paintings for people, but never get around to it. I usually give out my artwork for free as well. Put hours into it and go "here".
What else? A gamer/actor. I do enjoy role playing games, anime, and acting. When I was a kid, I was always picked first during the Christmas Plays at church and was given a large speaking role because I was able to not only memorize the script, but made it feel like I was actually there. I do enjoy role playing games as well because there, I get to make my own character in the storyline and hopefully contribute but also have to battle the character's shortcomings. It's always fun to pretend to be someone else. Which brings me to something else...
A writer. Like I had mentioned earlier, I used to always write poetry and short stories. I had my own characters, my own world, my own dilemmas and victories. My life would pour out onto paper in verse and it was a release for me. I don't know why I ever got out of that. Circumstance maybe.
Musician, dancer, artist, writer, actor, gamer...
I remember growing up, also having a flair for foreign languages and picked it up faster than many of the other students around me. I studied German from the time I was in Kindergarten all the way to 7th grade and then into high school, where I continued German and also picked up bits and pieces of French, and Spanish from friends of mine. I continue to pick up bits and pieces of Japanese, Italian, Romanian, and Russian here or there. Nothing major though.
I also remember that I was much more athletic growing up, and still exude a nice level of activeness. I also seem rather competitive, but in a supressed sort of way. A lot of my friends now aren't really the athletic type though, so there's rarely a reason to compete. When I was though, I was winning the blue ribbons, playing volleyball and swimming. Maybe the car accident I was in supressed me. It's a thought.
linguist, competitor...
I was also a science geek growing up. My main strengths were Biology and Paleontology, but I did well in Chemistry and Physical science as well. And genetics. I never did join any of the clubs associated with it, but *shrugs* by that time I was an underachiever.
scientist...
I have also been a very spiritual person and am even today. I'm not sure what religion if any I would fall into, but I do believe in a higher power that will answer prayers from the heart. Out of all the religions though, I enjoy the praise parts more than anything. The music, the rising energy, the overall good will. *smiles*
spiritualist...
And I love digging into the past and different cultures. Part of my fascination in seeing something new and different.
adventurer, culturist, Musician, dancer, artist, writer, actor, gamer, linguist, competitor, scientist, spiritualist...
Now for something different. Someone asked me what I would look for in someone I would be dating. Well, I know I find social awkwardness, and shyness adorable. But I usually think about other things in the context of what I would like. As in, when I imagine cuddling on the couch with someone, I like to be the one holding and petting my man. I like giving the comfort, for honestly, that makes me comfortable. I imagine holding my man if he cries, letting his tears fall upon my shoulders. They would have a sense of the aesthetic. I could see myself leaning on the railing staring off in the distance at the sunrise, or sunset, and have my guy come up beside me snuggling close and watching it with me. I'd like someone who doesn't mind getting attention, and actually has time for me. Too often I fall into a situation where the other person is far too busy for me, or not on the same page...
I'm the type of person, I would want to wake up in the morning and see sunlight pouring through a window, and kissing my lover's cheek...
Well I'm getting sappy and weepy. lol Later peeps.
If someone says in date speak, "I'll get back to you," doesn't that normally mean in english, "Whatever." February is teaching me both good and bad things it seems. And here I sit on Valentine's Day, pretty much alone, thinking to myself why I am. Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm a dreamer, and I look deeply into others, then I wait. Maybe my standards are much to high, or perhaps I am way too high maintenence for others. Like the opening line says though, Take me for what I am, who I was meant to be. And if you give a damn, take me baby, or leave me.
So what really am I? Well... let's knock down the locked door and take a look.
I love music and dancing. I can play bass guitar, clarinet, and wood flute, have tried my hand at writing music, have a knack for poetry, and when I had a partner for dancing could burn a hole in a dance floor. I think when I lost Shellie as a friend, I gave that part of myself up. She was my dynamic dance partner. We fed off each others' energies and knew what the other was thinking beforehand. Hard to beat that combo. When she got pregnant though our dancing ended, and I couldn't find another partner who was as dynamic as her although I have looked. This is outlying though. Dig a little deeper...
I was an artist. When your art teacher requests you to go into an advanced art class, most would be flattered and yet I was apathetic about it. I did some wonderful work when I was feeling the vibe but occasionally I would drift out of it back into a world of day dreams. I heard from someone later on my teacher was still using some of my artwork as examples and at one point I unknowingly had some work hanging in the CoMMA in Morganton. Very interesting to say the least. I've also had requested of me to paint some other paintings for people, but never get around to it. I usually give out my artwork for free as well. Put hours into it and go "here".
What else? A gamer/actor. I do enjoy role playing games, anime, and acting. When I was a kid, I was always picked first during the Christmas Plays at church and was given a large speaking role because I was able to not only memorize the script, but made it feel like I was actually there. I do enjoy role playing games as well because there, I get to make my own character in the storyline and hopefully contribute but also have to battle the character's shortcomings. It's always fun to pretend to be someone else. Which brings me to something else...
A writer. Like I had mentioned earlier, I used to always write poetry and short stories. I had my own characters, my own world, my own dilemmas and victories. My life would pour out onto paper in verse and it was a release for me. I don't know why I ever got out of that. Circumstance maybe.
Musician, dancer, artist, writer, actor, gamer...
I remember growing up, also having a flair for foreign languages and picked it up faster than many of the other students around me. I studied German from the time I was in Kindergarten all the way to 7th grade and then into high school, where I continued German and also picked up bits and pieces of French, and Spanish from friends of mine. I continue to pick up bits and pieces of Japanese, Italian, Romanian, and Russian here or there. Nothing major though.
I also remember that I was much more athletic growing up, and still exude a nice level of activeness. I also seem rather competitive, but in a supressed sort of way. A lot of my friends now aren't really the athletic type though, so there's rarely a reason to compete. When I was though, I was winning the blue ribbons, playing volleyball and swimming. Maybe the car accident I was in supressed me. It's a thought.
linguist, competitor...
I was also a science geek growing up. My main strengths were Biology and Paleontology, but I did well in Chemistry and Physical science as well. And genetics. I never did join any of the clubs associated with it, but *shrugs* by that time I was an underachiever.
scientist...
I have also been a very spiritual person and am even today. I'm not sure what religion if any I would fall into, but I do believe in a higher power that will answer prayers from the heart. Out of all the religions though, I enjoy the praise parts more than anything. The music, the rising energy, the overall good will. *smiles*
spiritualist...
And I love digging into the past and different cultures. Part of my fascination in seeing something new and different.
adventurer, culturist, Musician, dancer, artist, writer, actor, gamer, linguist, competitor, scientist, spiritualist...
Now for something different. Someone asked me what I would look for in someone I would be dating. Well, I know I find social awkwardness, and shyness adorable. But I usually think about other things in the context of what I would like. As in, when I imagine cuddling on the couch with someone, I like to be the one holding and petting my man. I like giving the comfort, for honestly, that makes me comfortable. I imagine holding my man if he cries, letting his tears fall upon my shoulders. They would have a sense of the aesthetic. I could see myself leaning on the railing staring off in the distance at the sunrise, or sunset, and have my guy come up beside me snuggling close and watching it with me. I'd like someone who doesn't mind getting attention, and actually has time for me. Too often I fall into a situation where the other person is far too busy for me, or not on the same page...
I'm the type of person, I would want to wake up in the morning and see sunlight pouring through a window, and kissing my lover's cheek...
Well I'm getting sappy and weepy. lol Later peeps.