'Tis the season...

[aka_lanie]

Okay, so it's Christmas, and just want to remind you that I am in a good mood, despite what I'm going to say next.  I'm honestly comfortable with where I am right now, and where it's going.  Sure, there are things I want - but don't necessarily need at the moment.  I have the rest of my life to have those things, and I'm sure that one day, I will

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[kimberkatie]

WORD! Aww ... sweetie. LJ is such an emotional place to be this evening it seems. Your post made me a bit misty, too, because I have the same feelings. Christmas can be unbearably sad and lonely, and even though I do pride myself on being a hermit and anti-social, and not wanting anybody around me ... sometimes if I really let it sink in, it makes me want to cry.

I love my cats and my rabbits, you guys, and my TV (yes, had to include TV in there!), but sometimes when I see other people all happy, and all these GD commercials for Zales and Jarod and Kay's, I'm like "aww ... why can't someone buy ME a 10 K bracelet?" and "When will *I* get a puppy with an engagement ring for Christmas?" (Ok, I'd probably only want the puppy, but you know...).

But as much as I do want someone in my life, at the same time I don't. I like my space, I think that's clear to everyone, and I'm afraid having someone in my life 24/7 would just ruin that and turn me into a big ol' grinch. So I am happy to be single, and happy to be lonely. As you may or may not know, things are kind of shit-hitting-the-fan with my family right now ... both between me and my parents and with my brother and all of us, so I haven't really heard from that camp for a while now. While I did want my space, and did want them to stop harassing me every day, it worries me because I'm not home and I don't know what's going on with them, and whether they're okay.

Eck ... it's a really long and complicated story. Perhaps some day soon I'll let you all in, but definitely not via LJ!

Anywho ... chin up, because tomorrow is our party! I am very excited, and looking forward to the company. Today I intended to clean my apartment and tidy up the place, but instead I read an entire book, took two naps, watched "Elf" and "Legally Blonde 2", and wrote out a list of things to bring to the US. Oy!

[aka_lanie]

Aww, shucks. I love ya too!

I love having my own space, too, and being independent. It's great being able to do what you want, when you want to. Sometimes I wonder if my future husband will put a crimp in my style and ruin all my fun. I dated a guy who thought it was his job to make sure I was taken care of. While I don't mind a free meal and nice gestures and all, he came on a bit strong right really early, and even tried to tell me what to do in certain situations. But he had a different culture than I'm used to, and so that was the way he was raised. Still, I could tell it wasn't going to work fairly quickly. Hopefully I can find someone who enjoys being my complement, and doesn't need me to drop everything in my life just to be in a relationship.

I really hope that everything turns out okay between you and your family. It sucks to have tension around the holidays. If you need a lifting of the spirits, you know where to look! Heck, we're going to be seeing so much of each other in the next week, we'll probably get sick of it! ;o) Never!