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Well i had a bit of a scary weekend. On thursday I go my usual snezzing fits from hanging out wit the animals at josh's. By friday i thought i had a cold so i stayed in merville and tried to keep myself well. eating chicken soup and trying to get lots of rest. But the thing is i couldn't sleep at all i probaly got like 4 hours of sleep that night. I felt like shit in the morning. Josh got up around 9 and gave me hugs and kisses trying to make me feel better. By this time i was weezing and my lung powers were reduced to ½ (this is what it felt like to me). So josh drove me in to town to see a doctor. The doc told me that it was a combination of a cold and allergies and that bothering me. she perscribed me 2 inhalers. I took one of the inhalers right away and it seemed to do me some good. but by the time i got to josh it was like i didn't take anything at all. Josh was nice enough to kick all the animals out and grab the air pure-efier (sp?). but that didn't seem to do any good. For a while i sat there with josh watching 40 days and 40 nights. Weezzing my way through the movie. After a while of the i couldn't take it i had to go some where else so i asked josh to take me to my moms. I thought a cleaner area would do me better. Well before i went i had to go down stairs and grabs some stuff (my lungs still at ½ capcity) so i went down stairs grabed some stuff and and went back up stairs. I was hyperventalating. I couldn't breath i was gasping for air. All i felt was panic even when josh was holding me. I didn't know what to do or handle myself in the state it was in. after some reasuring words from josh we proceded to his car. At this point josh was still holding me while i tried to stablize my breathing. The car ride back to town was alright. I got to my mom's said good bye to josh and ran inside the house without thinking about the state my lungs we in. I remeber passing out on bed in the basement suit. about maybe and hour later i wake up and breathing 1/3 or its ability. few more hours pass. my siblings watching me as i try not to cry in front of them. By then the pain was horrible. i couldn;t lie down, because breathing became harder. If i got up an did anything i it felt like i did a marathon. By 7 my mom was convinced that i should go to the emergancy ward. So i jumped into the car and off we were. My mom droped me off and the front of the hospital i went inside and wait for her return. At this point it felt like i only had the use of ¼ of my lungs. I walked inside and took a seat closest to me. The lady at the front desk thought i was alone and offered me a wheel chair. I think i would have liked being in a wheel chair if it didn't feel like was a about to die. So my mom pushed me to the emergancy ward where we waited like 5 minutes. We were put into a room and i was told to strip and put the blue cloth thing on. i had a nurse and a doctor come in to talk to me about smoking and my living situation. then they gave my this mask that was puffing out this vapor. Right then and there i started crying but it wasn't loud crying. It was silent. I was scared of being weak infront of other poeple. and living in calgary gave me alot of independance. so when i was hooked up to this machine i couldn't help but but feel weak. Afer that i could breath alot better. I had x-rays and blood test and and few other test done on me. They gave me a bunch of pills which after a while they made me very droswy and the lack of sleep wasn't helping the stituation. but it felt good to be sleeping. Yup It prably didn't soun very scary to you but it was frighting to me. TTYL