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Character Name: Walter White
Series: Breaking Bad
Age: 50
From When?: End of Season 4
Inmate/Warden: Inmate. He manufactures drugs for a living and will kill, without hesitation, when the situation calls for it. He needs to realize what he’s done isn’t justifiable anymore and deal with the emotions that comes with that.
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Abilities/Powers: Walter is a regular human. He is a gifted chemist who uses that knowledge to his benefit when possible.
Personality: Walter used to be a meek, mild tempered man. When his best friend cheated him out of a fortune he stayed quiet. He let his anger fester, blaming his friend for his subpar lifestyle, but never doing anything about it. He hated his job teaching chemistry to ungrateful students, but he did it every day without complaint. He hated washing cars and his pushy boss, but he kept his head down. His wife henpecked him and he did what he was told. He was a good dad and provider and that’s all he pretended he wanted to be. He lets himself be emasculated in every part of his life and never tried to fight it. That all changed the day he found out he had cancer and fifteen months to live.
He starts to let the anger out and makes choices that are off the radar for pre-cancer Walter. He quit the job at the car wash aggressively, yelling at his boss and breaking things in a fit of rage. His rage, which he kept in check for so long, was coming out with a vengeance. He decides to start making meth in order to leave some money for his family once he passed on. His own brother-in-law is a DEA agent, yet he takes the risk. He’s making his own rules for once. When it turns out dealing with drug dealers is harder than expected, it’s his idea to kill them in order to get rid of them. These choices surprise and shock him at first; he shows remorse and reluctance about the first one. That doesn’t stop him for a moment and as time paces he only gets more willing to use killing to get rid of those he sees as an obstacle. When push comes to shove, Walter will lie, cheat, steal and even kill to save himself. His pride wouldn’t let him take the charity even if it could save his life. If he’d given in and let someone help him with his sickness he would have taken a completely different path.
Walter has chances to get out of a life of crime, but at he didn’t want to. Something had changed in him. The mundane lifestyle of a normal person no longer excited him. Even after he finds out his cancer is in remission and he needs no more treatment, he chooses to stay in. He can only find pleasure in life when he’s distracted by plans of action for his new drug dealer life style or dealing with dangerous situations. He’s, in a way, addicted to the power and adrenaline rush of being a bad guy.
Walter is a man living a double life. He’s still trying to be the sweet, considerate family man while at the same time being the meth cooking drug dealer who can ward men off with a stare. It causes an obvious divide in him. Part of him is Heisenberg and another part Walt. (Heisenberg is the alias that Walter uses in the drug trade.) He’s not schizophrenic or has an actual second personality, but he is divided deeply. He has to compartmentalize in order to keep his life in check. He can’t afford to be a quivering idiot when facing down thugs and he can’t be an aggressive psycho while eating dinner with his family. Walter is the ego he uses when he’s with his son, his wife and friends. Walter feels the guilt, cries in his son’s arms and holds back the destructive side. Walter is the one trying to hold onto the scraps of his normal life, but he can’t avoid what he’s done. The consequences are too big now. He’s part of the criminal underworld and it doesn’t take lightly to weaklings. At his darkest Walter can do anything to save his own skin, including hurting children. Heisenberg helps him deal with that darkness. Heisenberg is respected, both for his superior meth making skills and from an imposing stare and tone of voice; when he talks, people listen. Walter likes the power that being Heisenberg gives him, but he hates that it’s amoral and illegal. Still, that doesn’t stop him from doing what he thinks is the only option.
For every evil thing Walter has done he has an excuse. He started the drug trade in order to leave his family money. He killed in order to protect his secrets and to save himself. Every excuse makes it easier. He’s killed nine people and been involved with the death of two more and it’s seems the body count is only going to keep on rising. He gloated about his most recent kill, saying he had won as if it was to be commended. People are slowly becoming playing pieces that he uses as he sees fit. He’s stopped feeling remorse like he used to and instead lets his ego driven power trip take him further down the depths of corruption then he ever thought he could go. His denial and excuses keep him from dealing with the horror that he’s brought upon himself and the fact he’s completely destroyed his life.
Walter isn’t going to take well to being on the barge. First he’ll feel panic and confusion, but then there will be a lot of anger. He’s going to feel he was mislabeled as an inmate. He knows he’s done things wrong, but he’s never thought he needed something like this. He’s gotten used to a certain level of power and control over his life suddenly losing that is going to make him irritated. He’s good at holding it back that fury, but in private he’ll be brooding, trying desperately to find a way out. He’s going to try and play games, perhaps faking a recovery in order to avoid actually dealing with the steps of redemption. His sole focus will be getting back to his family and his business.
Path to Redemption: Walter will be a hard nut to crack. He may seem unassuming in his mannerisms and looks, but it hides a stubborn man who thinks he is doing the right thing. His concept of morals and justice had completely chanced due to what he’s done to his life. It helps him deal with what he’d done, but it also means he doesn’t have to be honest with himself.
His family could be the catalysis for change. The money he’s made can never replace the time he’s lost with them or the distance that’s grown between them. It also can’t forgive the fact it’s put their very lives in danger. He needs to take responsibility for what he’s done and realize he’s hurt others. Not only does he hurt his family, but there are innocents that affected by the death of loved ones. The men he killed made decisions similar to his own and their families mourn didn’t see them as bad guys. They were brothers, sons, fathers and husbands who are missed.
He has to see there is a middle ground between being the push over and the aggressor. He doesn’t have to be one or the other, but a mix of them both. Unless he can find a center to himself, he’ll never see that he can be a good man without getting stepped on.
History: Walter grew up in California. He’s a talented chemist who contributed to a research team that won a Nobel Prize in Chemistry. While in college he helped form the Gray Matter Technology firm with a friend named Elliot Schwartz. He dated Gretchen until they went on a vacation with her family and he mysterious broke up with her and left with fledgling company. That company went on to make millions, while Walter ended up as a high school chemistry teacher and a car wash worker. He is married to Skyler White and the father of Walter Jr. At the beginning of the series Skyler is pregnant with their second child.
On Walter’s 50th birthday he is diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and only a few months to liveHe quits his job at the car wash and starts to consider cooking meth to secure a life for his family after his death. The idea comes from him after he sees a DEA bust of a drug lab and how much they are making. He learns that Jesse, a former student, is a drug dealer and talked to him about with the idea. They agree to work together and buy a RV to start making the product.
Walter is nearly killed when Jesse’s dealer Krazy-8 and Emilo come to the RV and Emilio recognizes Walter was at the drug raid. He survives by agreeing to show the drug dealers how to cook the meth. He uses the deadly chemicals to killer the dealers in self-defense. While in the desert he hears sirens and thinks he’s going to get caught. He attempts to suicide, but forgot to taken the safety off of the gun. Krazy-8 survives the encounter and they take him to Jesse’s house. When Krazy-8 plans to kill him, Walter has no choice, but to kill him first.
Skyler learns that Walter has been in touch with Jesse and confronts Walter. Walter tells her that he’s been buying pot from Jesse and admits to his cancer as a cover up. At first he refuses to get treatment, but at his family urging, he agrees to get it. Elliot and Gretchen Schwartz offer to pay for his treatment, but Walter refuses, deciding to make meth again instead.
At first Walter wants no part of the actual drug dealing and leaves that to Jesse, but quickly gets impatient with the speed of which Jesse is selling the drugs. He demands that Jesse fid a dealer that can move the product faster. Jesse finds Tuco who is a sociopathic drug kingpen who beats Jesse so badly that he is hospitalized on the first confrontation. Walter confronts Tuco, using the alias Heisenberg for the first time. He demanded a large sum for the drugs and Jesse’s pain. He uses an explosive crystal of fulminated mercury to blow up a building to prove his point. After that Tuco agrees to his demand and they form a partnership.
Walter and Jesse delivery their first batch of meth to Tuco and Tuco viciously beats one of his henchmen. That henchman dies as a result of the beating and it makes Tuco extremely paranoids. He kidnaps Walter and Jesse, fearing they will turn him in. After a struggle Jesse shoots Tuco and they both escape. Shortly after Tuco is shot to death in a gun fight with Hank, Walter’s DEA brother in law.
To explain where he’s been for the last few days, he strips down in a grocery store, pretending to be confused and says he has no recollection of that past few days. These constant lies start straining his marriage as Skyler seems to sense them. At the same time Walter grows more aggressive in the drug trade. When Jesse is short on money because some of his dealers were robbed, Walter demands Jesse handles it by any means necessary, which ends up getting him in trouble
Walter meets up with Gustavo, a cautious and low-profile kingpin who runs a chain of fried chicken restaurants as a cover up. He expresses concerns about dealing with Walter as he sees Jesse as unpredictable due to his meth addiction. Nevertheless Gus decides to buy 1.2 million dollars’ worth of meth from them. This deal is almost blown when Jesse’s too high to help Walter make the delivery. Walter is able to get the product to Gus on time, but misses his daughter’s birth in the process.
When Jesse demands his cut of the money Walter refuses until Jesse gets clean. Jesse’s drug addict girlfriend threatens to expose their operation if Jesse can’t get his money. That night he finds Jane and Jesse passed out after a drug fix. When Jane starts showing signs of overdosing, he does nothing to help her. She ends up dying and he let her go.
Jesse calls him distraught over Jane, having no idea Walter’s involvement in her death. Walter takes him to rehab. After that Walter undergoes a risky surgery to treat his lung cancer. It’s a success, but while under the drugs he makes incriminating statements that lead Skyler to discover Walter’s lies. She leaves him.
Walter moves out of his family house and Sklyer asks for a divorce. Skyler accuses Walter of dealing pot with Jesse in order to pay for his medical bills. Walter tells her about the meth and she says she wouldn’t tell anyone if they can get a divorce, yet he refuses. Gus offers Walter a 3 million to cook meth for three months, but Walter rejects him, too upset over losing his family. Walter breaks into his house and lives here although Skyler wants him gone.
One day while Walter is showing the Mexican drug dealers send two hitman after him because he killed Tuco who happened to be their cousin. He’s saved by Gus who then insists he needs Walter’s help making meth.
As trouble mounts Walter becomes an emotional mess, going so far as trying to kiss the assistant principal of the school he worked at. He was put on indefinite suspension for the act. He breaks down and finally accepts Gus’ offer of a super meth lab and signs the divorce paper’s for Skyler.
Walter and Jesse have a falling out and Jesse quits the lab. Walter gets a new assistant named Gale Boetticher.
Jesse finds out that the men who killed Combo were connected to Gus. He plans to kill them, but Walter stops them by telling Gus. This leads to all of them having a meeting and it’s agreed that Jesse wouldn’t hurt the dealers and that they would stop using kids. Tomas, an eleven year old who worked with local drug dealers, is murdered by two gunmen and angers Jesse, making him want to get revenge. Before he gets a chance to shoot them Walter comes by with his car and runs them over. He kills one and Walter has to shot the other himself. He sends Jesse into hiding and tells Gus he fled the state.
Walter realizes that Gus is grooming Gale, his former assistant to take over for him. He predicts that Gus will try to kill Walter once Gale is ready. He decides they have to kill Gale in order to keep Walter alive. Walter is kidnapped before he had a chance to do it himself. He is able to call Jesse and Jesse is the one who has to kill the innocent Gale. This saved Walter’s life as now he’s the only one who can work the lab and make Blue Sky.
When Gale was murdered, Jesse and Walter were kidnapped once more and taken to the laundry and to Gus. Gus slits his enforcers through in front of them with a box cutter. Walter is unnerved and fears he will kill them soon. He decides that Gus has to be killed and buys an illegal gun, only to find out Gus will not see him again. His emotions turn out this and he starts spending money recklessly. He buys his son a Dodge Challenger, but Skyler wouldn’t let him keep the gift. Walter destroys the car in an empty parking lot. Later, while talking with Skyler he gets so angry he uses his Heisenberg voice and scares her to the point that she almost leaves the state. She doesn’t saying that she was going to stay to protect the family from the man who protects them.
Walter and Gus started growing further apart. Gus puts in cameras to track his moves in the lab, while Jesses starts to act erratically. His troubles get worse as Gus tries to replace Jesse and Hank starts so suspect Gus is a drug lord. Walter gives a small bit of ricin to Jesse and tells him to kill Gus with it the moment he can. Jesse finds out that Walter bugged his car; he beats Walter up and breaks the partnership.
Gus takes Walter out into the dessert and tells him that if Walter tries to stop him from killing Hank, who is getting close to that operation, that he will kill Walter’s whole family. The only reason Gus didn’t kill Walter at that very moment was due to the fact Jesse would have stopped working for him if he had.
Walter is able to get Jesse back on his side after convincing him that Gus poisoned Brock. Jesse and Walter try to kill Gus by rigging his car, but Gus senses something is wrong and doesn’t get in the car. Jesse tells Walter that Gus is visiting Hector Salamanca. Walter plants more bombs under Hector’s wheelchair and with Hector’s help kills Gus. With Gus dead Walter storms the super lab, killing two henchmen and frees Jesse. They set fire to the superlab and laundry. Jesse then tells Walter that Brock wasn’t poisoned by ricin, but by a Lily of the Valley plant. The ending shot of the season is of that same plant being in Walter’s backyard, suggesting that it was Walter’s who poisoned the boy to manipulate Jesse.
Sample Journal Entry: If you think this is going to accomplish anything you are terribly wrong. I’ve been wrongly charged, brought here by mistake.
[He motioned to his face.] Do I look like I should be an inmate? I’m an old, unemployed father who just wants to get back to his kids.
[He let out a sigh, running his hand over his head.] Jesse, if you can…if you can somehow hear me. Just- I don’t know. Contact me in any way that you can. I need your help.
Sample RP: Walter sat at the edge of his bed, hunched over and wringing his hands. His eyes were darting back and forth in a frantic rhythm as if the answer to his problem was in the air before him and he could read it if he tried hard enough. His cheeks were pale in the dim light and he was sweating.
“Think, think, think,” Walter yelled out, hitting his head with each utterance of the word.
He’d never gone to jail. All he had done in the last few years and yet he’d never gotten as much as handcuffs put on him. While this room didn’t look like a jail cell, it actually was. In some ways it was worse. In jail he could see his family or make contact with the outside. Here, wherever here was, the rules were completely different.
“That is if this is real at all,” Walter said aloud simply for the sake of hearing something besides silence. He still had the dim hope that this was a drug induced hallucination. Jesse might have drugged him for one reason or another and this was the cause. The guilt he had been harboring making up this insane scenario in order to be addressed. That made more sense than any of this being real.
“Just have to wait it out,” he said running his hands over his bald head, rocking gently back and forth.
What if it didn’t go away? The question was a whisper on his conscious now. It was nagging him. Those blows to the head had left a throbbing spot. That felt real enough. Logically he knew this place was too detailed to be a dream. He’d never had a hallucination before, but he doubted they were anything like this. If this was real, then the game had new rules. Rules he didn’t know and wasn’t sure how he’d learn. He’d figure it out. He always did. He just needed time to think.
He went still then, his eyes closing and he let out a slow breath. He was pulling up all the courage he had, the same steadfastness that had saved his ass more than once. His brain slowed and then started to process thoughts rationally. He’d start with information gathering, figuring out how this place worked and then he’d go from there. He picked up the communicator; he aimed it before hitting record.
Special Notes: Jesse-mun and I have discussed my application and only found one complication. Jesse is coming from season 3 and Walter is coming from season 4. Now season 4 doesn’t work without Jesse, so having him die would change too much for my Walter. If this gets accepted we’ll need to discuss how this could work. Perhaps we could make it an alternative timeline.