"Just an hour and we'll be home, with the family that I chose".
A couple of major events took place yesterday.
I went and saw her, and Ash and Zeke came by for a surprise visit.
First, her. I guess I can actually tell you her name now since we are completely over. Her name is Kristine Jacobs. It went quite well actually. I drove by her house a couple times before actually parking across the street. Every time I got to that driveway I just sped up. The lump in my stomach kept growing as I walked cautiously up the walkway and rang the doorbell. That familiar sound I had grown to love so much, I almost lamented it now. After what seemed like hours to me but was probably only a few seconds she answered the door. The 180 degree shift her facial expression made after seeing me was almost enough to scare me away. We lingered there in silence for a few moments until I finally decided that I wanted to get this over with. I started by telling her where I had been and how I had been feeling and how I had changed. Halfway through all of this rehearsed speech she interupted and asked if I wanted to come in. I declined knowing that if I did walk in something would go wrong. She closed the door behind her and came out onto the porch. When I was finished she was quiet. She was really quiet. All she did was stare at me, stared right into my eyes. I could see tears welling up in hers so I looked away. She looked down to the concrete porch and apologized. Soft at first, but then she sniffed and said it a little louder. She apologized for everything that had happened in the past, explained how hurt she felt for what she did to me. Then she went on to say that she thought that I was dead, that i had killed myself. My father had apparently not told anyone where I had went or what had happened to me. I wonder what Jerrod and Ryan must think, or maybe they didn't even realize that I had gone. After another silent moment or so I gave her a hug and left. It will probably be the last time that we ever see each other again.
Then a couple hours after returning home I realized that I had a message on my answering machine. This struck me as odd because I had put that thing in for aesthetic purposes and did not even notice it until that annoying red light kept blinking in the corner of the room. I listened to it and it was Ash and Zeke. They said on the message they were coming to stay for a few days, and that they had a surprise for me. I thought to myself the visit was surprise enough. I met them at the McDonald's and proceeded to show them around some of the town. I had missed them so much. I brought them to the house and showed them my room where they would have to sleep since my father's bedroom and the living room were both practically his. They did not mind at all. Zeke and I agreed that Ash should get the bed and we'd take the floor. I asked them what my surprise was and Zeke shut the door. Ash sat me down on the bed and told me that Zeke and her and come to visit so that they could ask my father if I could live with them. They were going to explain to him that he would have no financial responsibility towards me if I was allowed to go. I felt so wanted. These guys are the best friends I have ever had, or could have ever wanted. They are going to present him with their proposal today when ever he wakes up. I am scared. I do not know my father that well. I do not know what he will say. I know that I will be happier with them and their family. I had already started to see them as my family anyway.
I went and saw her, and Ash and Zeke came by for a surprise visit.
First, her. I guess I can actually tell you her name now since we are completely over. Her name is Kristine Jacobs. It went quite well actually. I drove by her house a couple times before actually parking across the street. Every time I got to that driveway I just sped up. The lump in my stomach kept growing as I walked cautiously up the walkway and rang the doorbell. That familiar sound I had grown to love so much, I almost lamented it now. After what seemed like hours to me but was probably only a few seconds she answered the door. The 180 degree shift her facial expression made after seeing me was almost enough to scare me away. We lingered there in silence for a few moments until I finally decided that I wanted to get this over with. I started by telling her where I had been and how I had been feeling and how I had changed. Halfway through all of this rehearsed speech she interupted and asked if I wanted to come in. I declined knowing that if I did walk in something would go wrong. She closed the door behind her and came out onto the porch. When I was finished she was quiet. She was really quiet. All she did was stare at me, stared right into my eyes. I could see tears welling up in hers so I looked away. She looked down to the concrete porch and apologized. Soft at first, but then she sniffed and said it a little louder. She apologized for everything that had happened in the past, explained how hurt she felt for what she did to me. Then she went on to say that she thought that I was dead, that i had killed myself. My father had apparently not told anyone where I had went or what had happened to me. I wonder what Jerrod and Ryan must think, or maybe they didn't even realize that I had gone. After another silent moment or so I gave her a hug and left. It will probably be the last time that we ever see each other again.
Then a couple hours after returning home I realized that I had a message on my answering machine. This struck me as odd because I had put that thing in for aesthetic purposes and did not even notice it until that annoying red light kept blinking in the corner of the room. I listened to it and it was Ash and Zeke. They said on the message they were coming to stay for a few days, and that they had a surprise for me. I thought to myself the visit was surprise enough. I met them at the McDonald's and proceeded to show them around some of the town. I had missed them so much. I brought them to the house and showed them my room where they would have to sleep since my father's bedroom and the living room were both practically his. They did not mind at all. Zeke and I agreed that Ash should get the bed and we'd take the floor. I asked them what my surprise was and Zeke shut the door. Ash sat me down on the bed and told me that Zeke and her and come to visit so that they could ask my father if I could live with them. They were going to explain to him that he would have no financial responsibility towards me if I was allowed to go. I felt so wanted. These guys are the best friends I have ever had, or could have ever wanted. They are going to present him with their proposal today when ever he wakes up. I am scared. I do not know my father that well. I do not know what he will say. I know that I will be happier with them and their family. I had already started to see them as my family anyway.