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When I think about where I've gone, how far I've come and where I am now I'm always caught by surprise by my ambivalent nature. I try too hard to be indifferent to everything. I know the only reason I can never get to sleep at a reasonable hour is that I'm worried I'm letting everything slip away that is under my control. It's getting to the point where I don't know what I want anymore and there's only so much I can do about it. I still like to believe in my unlimited potential but I'm starting to think I'm just a naive bottomed out adolescent. What happened to time, and "the sky is the limit". This is the one time this weekend I haven't been having an amazing time or have been at least pre-occupied. So of course I come up with this nonsense. Go figure.