hmm
well, today i actually went to the mall to buy some stuff. i got a button down shirt and a pair of khakis. they look alright. i think it'll be kinda weird if i just all of a sudden change the way i dress though, so i guess i'll just where that stuff ocassionally. ya.. i need to get new shorts tho, the tears in the pockets are getting bigger.
these days are just wizzing by, yet crawling so slowly at the same time. i feel like i'm constantly bored, or i feel like there is something better for me to do.
argh, i hate looking for gifts for people. it doesnt necessarily need to be the best gift they've ever gotten but u want it to be something that they won't throw away or stuff in the closet - it's basically a waste of money if they do that. i think it's really hard to shop for girls too. there's the safe route with something fruity like lotion. but, that's just so unthoughtful it's not even an option anymore. can't buy make up or clothes cuz u can never be sure what the girl will like, especially my picky cousins. i wanna just give them gift certificates, but i definitely don't have enough money to get each of them gift certificates. my cousins always get me good gifts.. i feel bad not getting anything good for them.
ah, i hope my time here in this tiny apartment will get better. so far, the only thing i can look forward to is going online and talking with mimi. i feel trapped or something. i bet this is how it's like when u get old, except worse. there's nothing to do but sit around and watch tv, read, eat and sleep. there's no purpose in life, u just exist. i hope that when i grow old i at least won't be old alone. i hope i'll have friends to visit, and an old wife to be with.
its' 2 am right now... the world seems so dead. it was so nice at ucsd where practically everyone would be awake at this time. there's always someone to talk to. i didnt think i'd like having all these people living so close to me before i went to college, but now that i'm at home it just feels lonley being away from everyone.
i still like santa rosa and the ppl here.. it just feels so weird living here after living in the res halls for 3 months. i guess i've just grown so accustomed to dorm life - i like it so much.
2 and a half weeks til i go back to sunny san diego.
these days are just wizzing by, yet crawling so slowly at the same time. i feel like i'm constantly bored, or i feel like there is something better for me to do.
argh, i hate looking for gifts for people. it doesnt necessarily need to be the best gift they've ever gotten but u want it to be something that they won't throw away or stuff in the closet - it's basically a waste of money if they do that. i think it's really hard to shop for girls too. there's the safe route with something fruity like lotion. but, that's just so unthoughtful it's not even an option anymore. can't buy make up or clothes cuz u can never be sure what the girl will like, especially my picky cousins. i wanna just give them gift certificates, but i definitely don't have enough money to get each of them gift certificates. my cousins always get me good gifts.. i feel bad not getting anything good for them.
ah, i hope my time here in this tiny apartment will get better. so far, the only thing i can look forward to is going online and talking with mimi. i feel trapped or something. i bet this is how it's like when u get old, except worse. there's nothing to do but sit around and watch tv, read, eat and sleep. there's no purpose in life, u just exist. i hope that when i grow old i at least won't be old alone. i hope i'll have friends to visit, and an old wife to be with.
its' 2 am right now... the world seems so dead. it was so nice at ucsd where practically everyone would be awake at this time. there's always someone to talk to. i didnt think i'd like having all these people living so close to me before i went to college, but now that i'm at home it just feels lonley being away from everyone.
i still like santa rosa and the ppl here.. it just feels so weird living here after living in the res halls for 3 months. i guess i've just grown so accustomed to dorm life - i like it so much.
2 and a half weeks til i go back to sunny san diego.