Frustrated is a good way to sum everything up
I was hoping to play poker tonight, but that kinda fell through, so I thought now would be an opportune time to finally update my journal. It's been quite a while since my last update...not because I have nothing going on but because so much stuff is going on that I haven't had the time to get it all down on paper. Wow, let's see if I can remember everything....this will all probably be in no particular order.
I like Kevin, a lot. He's my RA. I gave him my screenname so he could even end up reading this, which is cool. It's really no secret. I emailed him a little while ago and asked him if he wanted to hang out sometime and he agreed that it would be fun, so hopefully that will actually happen. I even sent him a Valentine this past Valentine's Day (as well as my roomies) :) He's really cool and I would love for it to work out. I have absolutely no luck with guys. I would love to have a boyfriend and it would be awesome if Kevin and I were to hit it off and things would work out. We still have yet to hang out....he said he's going away for Spring Break, so it'll be a little longer before we actually find some time...but hopefully we will.
We didn't get on campus housing. The guys did, but we didn't. It has been a nightmare searching for an apartment....it was like that when I was looking for an apartment in NYC, so I pretty much expected that it wouldn't be smooth sailing. One of my realtors, Kevin, is from Durham and I liked him the best. He showed me some good apartments in our price range. So far, I have been the only one able to go out and look at the actual apartments. My vote goes to 616 Columbus, but Heather wants Cunard Street and Kris is kinda apathetic about the whole thing. I took pictures but they don't give the full effect of what I saw and did (like walking up the 5 flights of stairs), and I really think the apartment on 616 Columbus is the best choice so far. But we have to agree, which doesn't seem to be happening easily. I'm trying to also get as close to campus as possible, so we can hang out with the guys with ease. I had this idea to have a dinner together at least once a week and everyone seems to be on board, so that makes me feel a little better about everything. I can't wait for this whole housing thing to be done and settled with. I would love to have one less thing to worry about these days.
Work is good....keeping me busy and a little stressful, but I'm loving it.
Now what has been really bothering me the last few days. What has been bothering me lately is everything combined on top of this: Mom. Mom's sick...this is no mystery, she has been sick with MS for about 10 years and has been a poster child for supporting research to find a cure and new treatments. We're walking in the MS walk for the last time ever (this is Mom's decision and I support her decision). She actually didn't even want to walk this year but stuff hit the fan and now I guess we're walking. **A quick plug: I am collecting money for the MS Walk and I hope everyone would like to donate. Please consider it and let me know if you would like to help out and support the cause** Mom seems a little weird lately. A bit off...I don't know how to explain it really. We wonder if maybe she is a lot sicker than we think she is. She kinda sounds like that could be the reason. There have been fights surrounding this whole thing that I don't want to get into, but it's really scary to think she is getting worse. She's already in pain 24/7, tired all the time, on medication. Cut her a break here. It really upsets me though, because I just want her to get better. (I'm actually going to stop talking about it now because I feel like I'm going to start to cry if I continue, and I don't want anyone to walk in and see me crying).
I noticed I have been getting a little worse lately too. If you don't know what I am talking about, I'm sorry but I'm not going to go into detail about it here. I just wanted to write out that I've noticed it's getting worse and more apparent lately.....not that it will help or anything. If you ask me about it, I may tell you, but I'm not going to talk about it here.
Other than all of that junk, everything is cool. Kyle, Katie, and I went out to a party this weekend and had an awesome time. The next morning wasn't as great, but it was so much fun to hang out with them this weekend. I was hoping to have a chance to hang out with Kyle more, so that was great that we got that chance this weekend. The three of us played Monopoly, too, this weekend (Kyle kicked our asses....I was doing fine until that hotel on Boardwalk did me in). Last night, the 6 of us played a few rounds of "Asshole" (Kyle and I, who both had ridiculous hangovers from the night before, definitely did not drink) and a game I have always wanted to play with everyone called "True Colors." It was a great time. I even talked to Kevin (I seem to know a lot of Kevin's hahaha.....this is Roommate Kevin) and he said he might come up soon. Once it gets warmer, I want to go golfing with him, Kyle, and hopefully Ryan. That would be an awesome time. I can't wait 'til it gets warmer.
I'm gonna go clean the apartment or get ready for bed or something. I'll try and update more often...it feels good to get this stuff finally down on paper.
I like Kevin, a lot. He's my RA. I gave him my screenname so he could even end up reading this, which is cool. It's really no secret. I emailed him a little while ago and asked him if he wanted to hang out sometime and he agreed that it would be fun, so hopefully that will actually happen. I even sent him a Valentine this past Valentine's Day (as well as my roomies) :) He's really cool and I would love for it to work out. I have absolutely no luck with guys. I would love to have a boyfriend and it would be awesome if Kevin and I were to hit it off and things would work out. We still have yet to hang out....he said he's going away for Spring Break, so it'll be a little longer before we actually find some time...but hopefully we will.
We didn't get on campus housing. The guys did, but we didn't. It has been a nightmare searching for an apartment....it was like that when I was looking for an apartment in NYC, so I pretty much expected that it wouldn't be smooth sailing. One of my realtors, Kevin, is from Durham and I liked him the best. He showed me some good apartments in our price range. So far, I have been the only one able to go out and look at the actual apartments. My vote goes to 616 Columbus, but Heather wants Cunard Street and Kris is kinda apathetic about the whole thing. I took pictures but they don't give the full effect of what I saw and did (like walking up the 5 flights of stairs), and I really think the apartment on 616 Columbus is the best choice so far. But we have to agree, which doesn't seem to be happening easily. I'm trying to also get as close to campus as possible, so we can hang out with the guys with ease. I had this idea to have a dinner together at least once a week and everyone seems to be on board, so that makes me feel a little better about everything. I can't wait for this whole housing thing to be done and settled with. I would love to have one less thing to worry about these days.
Work is good....keeping me busy and a little stressful, but I'm loving it.
Now what has been really bothering me the last few days. What has been bothering me lately is everything combined on top of this: Mom. Mom's sick...this is no mystery, she has been sick with MS for about 10 years and has been a poster child for supporting research to find a cure and new treatments. We're walking in the MS walk for the last time ever (this is Mom's decision and I support her decision). She actually didn't even want to walk this year but stuff hit the fan and now I guess we're walking. **A quick plug: I am collecting money for the MS Walk and I hope everyone would like to donate. Please consider it and let me know if you would like to help out and support the cause** Mom seems a little weird lately. A bit off...I don't know how to explain it really. We wonder if maybe she is a lot sicker than we think she is. She kinda sounds like that could be the reason. There have been fights surrounding this whole thing that I don't want to get into, but it's really scary to think she is getting worse. She's already in pain 24/7, tired all the time, on medication. Cut her a break here. It really upsets me though, because I just want her to get better. (I'm actually going to stop talking about it now because I feel like I'm going to start to cry if I continue, and I don't want anyone to walk in and see me crying).
I noticed I have been getting a little worse lately too. If you don't know what I am talking about, I'm sorry but I'm not going to go into detail about it here. I just wanted to write out that I've noticed it's getting worse and more apparent lately.....not that it will help or anything. If you ask me about it, I may tell you, but I'm not going to talk about it here.
Other than all of that junk, everything is cool. Kyle, Katie, and I went out to a party this weekend and had an awesome time. The next morning wasn't as great, but it was so much fun to hang out with them this weekend. I was hoping to have a chance to hang out with Kyle more, so that was great that we got that chance this weekend. The three of us played Monopoly, too, this weekend (Kyle kicked our asses....I was doing fine until that hotel on Boardwalk did me in). Last night, the 6 of us played a few rounds of "Asshole" (Kyle and I, who both had ridiculous hangovers from the night before, definitely did not drink) and a game I have always wanted to play with everyone called "True Colors." It was a great time. I even talked to Kevin (I seem to know a lot of Kevin's hahaha.....this is Roommate Kevin) and he said he might come up soon. Once it gets warmer, I want to go golfing with him, Kyle, and hopefully Ryan. That would be an awesome time. I can't wait 'til it gets warmer.
I'm gonna go clean the apartment or get ready for bed or something. I'll try and update more often...it feels good to get this stuff finally down on paper.