Long and rough day
I can definitely truly say that I have had better days than today. :( Today really wasn't a great day. It started out with me not being able to sleep last night. I must have been really tired because I started falling asleep while watching the Olympics, but I then was wide awake and listened to music until about 2:15a. I plugged some formulas into my TI-83+ before going to bed but other than that, I really never did look over the material again. The minute my head hit the pillow, I started dreaming about accounting. It was the stupidest thing. I had double declining balance formulas and present value methods entering my head, and I started freaking out about the final. I, all of a sudden, felt like I knew nothing despite studying for so long. I must have finally got comfortable and went to bed and impressively, got up early enough to eat breakfast whilst I went over the material real quick (breakfast at the cafe was a real mistake; those government eggs will make any stomach turn and the tater tots, a food that never lets you down, just weren't able to pick up the slack of the eggs). I get to the final a little early and we all talk about it and joke around and study a bit. By that point, I just didn't want to look at it anymore. And of course, naturally, as I predicted, I get to the final and everything is worded all weird and doesn't really look like anything we had done in class or in study group. So I really wouldn't say I aced it.
I talked to Talia when I got back. I would like to take this moment to send my congratulations to her on getting her license. Everyone off the road, she's nuts! hahaha Just kidding. ;) You know I'm proud of her. :) She made it a huge secret and when I asked her about it the other day she said, "Really, Czaja, you should know what it is, you're dumb if you haven't gotten it by now." haha So that motivated me to think harder and I had actually guessed what it was before today (or more technically, I remembered her telling me that she was going for her license the 17th...but I cleverly compromised the dates hahahaha). I kinda wish she was on now. I feel like talking to her, I'm kinda out of it. But it's cool.
Since I hadn't gotten much sleep last night, I conked right out for a good nap. I felt bad because Julie was moving out and I wasn't awake to help her. I actually missed saying goodbye to her, but I'll shoot her an IM sometime later and keep in touch with a hello every so often.
Mom called me during my nap around 4:00p and woke me up. She called to tell me that Nanny died. :( I felt bad because I didn't sound sad on the phone and I feel like I should be crying about it, but the way I see it, she was sick and suffering for so long and in and out of the ICU that now she's at peace and resting and I feel good about that. I am sad, just looking at it in a different light. I actually realized a few years ago that I have never cried at death. Whenever someone died, and I would go to the wake, I never cried. It was upon realizing that that I made a promise to myself that I would make it a point to never cry at death. If that makes no sense to anyone else, it really doesn't matter, it makes sense to me. It's how I have chosen to deal and grieve with death. So I always look at it now in a different light, a more positive light, if you will. I will miss Nanny a lot. I love you, Nanny. :)
I'm a little drained and groggy right now. I wish I had a TV to watch the Olympics and just sit and relax tonight but the TV went with the roommates moving out. Joe and Meg offered to let me watch with them, but I think they were just being nice. I don't want to just go to watch their TV. I don't think either one of them would be into watch Men's Gymnastics, so I don't want to impose on them. I guess I'll just kinda sit here and listen to music and eat my Wollaston's buffalo turkey sandwich, for the 4th time this week.
I talked to Talia when I got back. I would like to take this moment to send my congratulations to her on getting her license. Everyone off the road, she's nuts! hahaha Just kidding. ;) You know I'm proud of her. :) She made it a huge secret and when I asked her about it the other day she said, "Really, Czaja, you should know what it is, you're dumb if you haven't gotten it by now." haha So that motivated me to think harder and I had actually guessed what it was before today (or more technically, I remembered her telling me that she was going for her license the 17th...but I cleverly compromised the dates hahahaha). I kinda wish she was on now. I feel like talking to her, I'm kinda out of it. But it's cool.
Since I hadn't gotten much sleep last night, I conked right out for a good nap. I felt bad because Julie was moving out and I wasn't awake to help her. I actually missed saying goodbye to her, but I'll shoot her an IM sometime later and keep in touch with a hello every so often.
Mom called me during my nap around 4:00p and woke me up. She called to tell me that Nanny died. :( I felt bad because I didn't sound sad on the phone and I feel like I should be crying about it, but the way I see it, she was sick and suffering for so long and in and out of the ICU that now she's at peace and resting and I feel good about that. I am sad, just looking at it in a different light. I actually realized a few years ago that I have never cried at death. Whenever someone died, and I would go to the wake, I never cried. It was upon realizing that that I made a promise to myself that I would make it a point to never cry at death. If that makes no sense to anyone else, it really doesn't matter, it makes sense to me. It's how I have chosen to deal and grieve with death. So I always look at it now in a different light, a more positive light, if you will. I will miss Nanny a lot. I love you, Nanny. :)
I'm a little drained and groggy right now. I wish I had a TV to watch the Olympics and just sit and relax tonight but the TV went with the roommates moving out. Joe and Meg offered to let me watch with them, but I think they were just being nice. I don't want to just go to watch their TV. I don't think either one of them would be into watch Men's Gymnastics, so I don't want to impose on them. I guess I'll just kinda sit here and listen to music and eat my Wollaston's buffalo turkey sandwich, for the 4th time this week.