dont panic. venting.
You slay me.
You thrust your blade through my chest.
With a gaping hole in my heart,
You leave me bleeding and broken on a bed of sharp rocks.
The red fluid that seeps from my cavity, stains the shards that stab through my skin.
I balance on the line between life and death…
praying only for the pain to stop,
not caring which way it happens.
Death has never seemed sweeter, than when it promises an end to the pain that haunts my every breath.
Life seems endlessly more and more difficult… not worth the trouble… not worth the pain.
You look at me and feel nothing, you look through me as I cry.
You turn away and you will never look back.
But I still bleed.
I still lie here, alone, bleeding, dying, loving you.
While my life has no meaning, you have begun to search for yours.
You will find a happiness someday,
while I will forever be haunted by your disappearance from my life.
I know not how to live, when I want only to live for you.
I know not how to love, when I want only to love you.
I have been rejected and tossed aside,
My love not enough to hold you.
I was not good enough.
I was not enough.
Pain is life, life is pain.
I’m ready to be done, I don’t want to fight anymore.
I don’t want to be disappointed anymore, or empty anymore, or broken.
And I am so broken.
I lie on my floor and weep, I lie in my shower and weep, I drive and weep, I never stop.
When no one is looking, when no one is around, when there’s no one to see me, I weep.
I don’t know how to survive,
How to keep moving, how to believe in happiness anymore.
Its work to try and forget my sadness, and I just don’t have the energy anymore. I just want it to end.
Happiness, love, I believe in it, but not for me.
Not when you can just walk away.
Not even fight.
Not even try.
I fought, I begged, I pleaded, I cried out, and you turned away and just walked…
Just… kept right on going…
While I was bleeding and broken upon the rocks.
Crying out for you to just love me.
To save me.
My soul will turn to ashes,
What is left of my heart will become stone.
I have traveled this road to nothing,
This road that takes away all feeling.
I don’t want to do it again.
And I am afraid.
And I am in pain.
You thrust your blade through my chest.
With a gaping hole in my heart,
You leave me bleeding and broken on a bed of sharp rocks.
The red fluid that seeps from my cavity, stains the shards that stab through my skin.
I balance on the line between life and death…
praying only for the pain to stop,
not caring which way it happens.
Death has never seemed sweeter, than when it promises an end to the pain that haunts my every breath.
Life seems endlessly more and more difficult… not worth the trouble… not worth the pain.
You look at me and feel nothing, you look through me as I cry.
You turn away and you will never look back.
But I still bleed.
I still lie here, alone, bleeding, dying, loving you.
While my life has no meaning, you have begun to search for yours.
You will find a happiness someday,
while I will forever be haunted by your disappearance from my life.
I know not how to live, when I want only to live for you.
I know not how to love, when I want only to love you.
I have been rejected and tossed aside,
My love not enough to hold you.
I was not good enough.
I was not enough.
Pain is life, life is pain.
I’m ready to be done, I don’t want to fight anymore.
I don’t want to be disappointed anymore, or empty anymore, or broken.
And I am so broken.
I lie on my floor and weep, I lie in my shower and weep, I drive and weep, I never stop.
When no one is looking, when no one is around, when there’s no one to see me, I weep.
I don’t know how to survive,
How to keep moving, how to believe in happiness anymore.
Its work to try and forget my sadness, and I just don’t have the energy anymore. I just want it to end.
Happiness, love, I believe in it, but not for me.
Not when you can just walk away.
Not even fight.
Not even try.
I fought, I begged, I pleaded, I cried out, and you turned away and just walked…
Just… kept right on going…
While I was bleeding and broken upon the rocks.
Crying out for you to just love me.
To save me.
My soul will turn to ashes,
What is left of my heart will become stone.
I have traveled this road to nothing,
This road that takes away all feeling.
I don’t want to do it again.
And I am afraid.
And I am in pain.