i can live without you, i just don't want to
6 hours of driving for 2 hours at a wedding...kinda crazy, but totally fun. we traveled the world today - peru, "center" of nowhere, saw a "restaraunt", drove through the most freak rain shower ever, and ended up in kokomo. all to sit at a table with some crazy old people we didn't know and do a crossword puzzle.
why does everything remind me of him? it takes everything in me to not call him and tell him that i love him...all over a person who i'm sure has not thought of me at all in the last 4 months. i feel sickeningly pathetic, and slightly crazy and i don't even see an end in sight. every once in a while i convince myself i'm better off without him, that i'll meet someone else, someone who would never leave me the way he left me. but i don't think i'll ever find someone that treated me that way he did, that fell in love with me like he did, and someone that i fell in love with the way i fell in love with him. i don't want anyone else. what the hell am i supposed to do? he had my heart and when he left he took it with him, and as much as he doesn't know it - and won't know it - he still has it. and he can have it, i want him to, i just wish he could see it.
why does everything remind me of him? it takes everything in me to not call him and tell him that i love him...all over a person who i'm sure has not thought of me at all in the last 4 months. i feel sickeningly pathetic, and slightly crazy and i don't even see an end in sight. every once in a while i convince myself i'm better off without him, that i'll meet someone else, someone who would never leave me the way he left me. but i don't think i'll ever find someone that treated me that way he did, that fell in love with me like he did, and someone that i fell in love with the way i fell in love with him. i don't want anyone else. what the hell am i supposed to do? he had my heart and when he left he took it with him, and as much as he doesn't know it - and won't know it - he still has it. and he can have it, i want him to, i just wish he could see it.