Well...shit.
Haven't posted anything in a while. I'm not really sure why. Laziness, lack of motivation, nothing to talk about, all of the above. However, there is now stuff to discuss even if it's just to myself on this blog.
1.) In a rare fit of rebellion, I got a tattoo. My parents do not know about it. It's a doe with the word 'always' underneath it. Harry Potter fans will know what it means. I love it. I absolutely love it. But I couldn't tell my parents about getting one simply because I knew my mother wouldn't let me. I mean, she didn't even let me dye my hair red when I was in high school. Although, she did let my sister dye her hair whatever color she wanted several times. So, I did something for myself for once and got my tattoo. I don't regret it.
2.) My mother spent $2000 on a golden retriever puppy that we've named Luna. She's a little ball of fluffy terror, but she's cute. Therefore, it all balances out. However, I find myself getting stuck on puppy-sitting duty more often than not, and it's a little bit annoying. Luna is supposed to be going through training right now so she won't chew holes in my hands and feet, but mom tends to forget that small little detail. I have no idea how to go about training a dog. That's mom's deal, but I keep getting stuck watching over this adorable, hyperactive, fluffy monster. I'll get over it, I suppose.
3.) My papaw's been in and out of the hospital a lot lately, and I'm really worried about him. He's got cancer that keeps coming back and spreading, and he's had several heart attacks just within a few weeks of each other. My grandmother is becoming more and more forgetful, and I'm afraid that one day she's going to forget and leave the oven on or something and then something bad could happen. My uncle has a small aneurysm in his heart, and it turns out that it's genetic. Luckily, it was caught early, and can be monitored to see if it gets any better. My other uncle on the same side most likely died of the same thing, and my mom probably has it, too, but she still hasn't gotten it checked out.
4.) On a brighter note, I've found a new show to focus my attentions on. The show itself, Criminal Minds, isn't new, but it's pretty awesome. Dr. Spencer Reid is seriously sexy. He's a genius who graduated high school at age twelve, and at age 24, he already had three doctorates.
See? Sexy. ;)
5.) Finally, my parents are separating. To be completely honest, I knew it was coming. I just never really knew when. I mean, they don't even sleep in the same room anymore. They haven't for years. But really, I think it completely kicked in when I noticed that they never said I love you to each other, and they haven't for quite a while. Even though I know everything's going to be okay, it still kind of hurts. I kind of wish that their separation had stemmed from an argument. I know that sounds awful, but the fact that they're separating because they just don't love each other anymore is somewhat heartbreaking. I don't know. However, I do think that this whole mess is a big part of why my dad is hardly ever home. He leaves seriously early for work, and doesn't get back until past nine pm most nights. I hardly ever see him anymore, and when I do, he's mostly in a bad mood. Like tonight, for instance. I asked him how his day was, and he was surly and gave me a "fine" and didn't say another word. I've barely seen him at all this summer, and I'm going back to school in a few days. It just...it's frustrating.
I'm kind of seriously tired of everything.
1.) In a rare fit of rebellion, I got a tattoo. My parents do not know about it. It's a doe with the word 'always' underneath it. Harry Potter fans will know what it means. I love it. I absolutely love it. But I couldn't tell my parents about getting one simply because I knew my mother wouldn't let me. I mean, she didn't even let me dye my hair red when I was in high school. Although, she did let my sister dye her hair whatever color she wanted several times. So, I did something for myself for once and got my tattoo. I don't regret it.
2.) My mother spent $2000 on a golden retriever puppy that we've named Luna. She's a little ball of fluffy terror, but she's cute. Therefore, it all balances out. However, I find myself getting stuck on puppy-sitting duty more often than not, and it's a little bit annoying. Luna is supposed to be going through training right now so she won't chew holes in my hands and feet, but mom tends to forget that small little detail. I have no idea how to go about training a dog. That's mom's deal, but I keep getting stuck watching over this adorable, hyperactive, fluffy monster. I'll get over it, I suppose.
3.) My papaw's been in and out of the hospital a lot lately, and I'm really worried about him. He's got cancer that keeps coming back and spreading, and he's had several heart attacks just within a few weeks of each other. My grandmother is becoming more and more forgetful, and I'm afraid that one day she's going to forget and leave the oven on or something and then something bad could happen. My uncle has a small aneurysm in his heart, and it turns out that it's genetic. Luckily, it was caught early, and can be monitored to see if it gets any better. My other uncle on the same side most likely died of the same thing, and my mom probably has it, too, but she still hasn't gotten it checked out.
4.) On a brighter note, I've found a new show to focus my attentions on. The show itself, Criminal Minds, isn't new, but it's pretty awesome. Dr. Spencer Reid is seriously sexy. He's a genius who graduated high school at age twelve, and at age 24, he already had three doctorates.
See? Sexy. ;)
5.) Finally, my parents are separating. To be completely honest, I knew it was coming. I just never really knew when. I mean, they don't even sleep in the same room anymore. They haven't for years. But really, I think it completely kicked in when I noticed that they never said I love you to each other, and they haven't for quite a while. Even though I know everything's going to be okay, it still kind of hurts. I kind of wish that their separation had stemmed from an argument. I know that sounds awful, but the fact that they're separating because they just don't love each other anymore is somewhat heartbreaking. I don't know. However, I do think that this whole mess is a big part of why my dad is hardly ever home. He leaves seriously early for work, and doesn't get back until past nine pm most nights. I hardly ever see him anymore, and when I do, he's mostly in a bad mood. Like tonight, for instance. I asked him how his day was, and he was surly and gave me a "fine" and didn't say another word. I've barely seen him at all this summer, and I'm going back to school in a few days. It just...it's frustrating.
I'm kind of seriously tired of everything.