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You know, somethings are hard. Relationships are the hardest.
But last night when you said you don't feel we connect as much as we used to, and that we have nothing to talk about. I feel that's a lie.!
All my day consists of is talking to you. If i'm not texting, or calling you, im waiting for your quick reply. I know we cant connect on some levels as i feel alot dumber than you, and i dont read books, and you dont watch tv. So its hard to just chat quotes. And I ask you the dumbest questions, just for fun. But apart from that i think we are fine.
I know you get annoyed when i dont act all affectionate in public. And thats cus i feel weird. i dont like people looking or making comments, But after you pointed it out. Ive been trying harder, and not caring. ill hold your hand, ill give you hugs, and kisses. I dont want to hold back with you.
It is hard with your meds, and when your tired, or hurting. When i just wanna squeeze you so hard. and i cant.
Because of your tumor, i feel its brought us closer. You probably haven't realized. But I have. After fred i decided i would never chase after anyone, and if they left me i would leave them to thier own devices. And i still stick by that...
But if i was to loose you to something not of me or you, but of to something such as cancer. I dont know how i would feel.Or what i would do.
I dont belive in 'god' but i know inside that i pray for you everyday that you'll be okay and that its not serious. I would rather it be me with the cancer than you. I don't feel i have achieved half as much as you have in this life. And its so obvious of the impact you make on people, and how people just radiate towards you. im glad that you havent let this bring you down and im sorry i cant joke about it with you. Im just too worried. I want it so much to be out of you. And i hope this was the root to all your problems. I think your having surgery soon, I hope you wake up and everything is perfect.
But last night when you said you don't feel we connect as much as we used to, and that we have nothing to talk about. I feel that's a lie.!
All my day consists of is talking to you. If i'm not texting, or calling you, im waiting for your quick reply. I know we cant connect on some levels as i feel alot dumber than you, and i dont read books, and you dont watch tv. So its hard to just chat quotes. And I ask you the dumbest questions, just for fun. But apart from that i think we are fine.
I know you get annoyed when i dont act all affectionate in public. And thats cus i feel weird. i dont like people looking or making comments, But after you pointed it out. Ive been trying harder, and not caring. ill hold your hand, ill give you hugs, and kisses. I dont want to hold back with you.
It is hard with your meds, and when your tired, or hurting. When i just wanna squeeze you so hard. and i cant.
Because of your tumor, i feel its brought us closer. You probably haven't realized. But I have. After fred i decided i would never chase after anyone, and if they left me i would leave them to thier own devices. And i still stick by that...
But if i was to loose you to something not of me or you, but of to something such as cancer. I dont know how i would feel.Or what i would do.
I dont belive in 'god' but i know inside that i pray for you everyday that you'll be okay and that its not serious. I would rather it be me with the cancer than you. I don't feel i have achieved half as much as you have in this life. And its so obvious of the impact you make on people, and how people just radiate towards you. im glad that you havent let this bring you down and im sorry i cant joke about it with you. Im just too worried. I want it so much to be out of you. And i hope this was the root to all your problems. I think your having surgery soon, I hope you wake up and everything is perfect.