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Yesterday was fantastic. For the longest time, I was afraid it was falling apart between me and Alexis. I found out I was wrong. I walked up to her apartments, armed with flowers and this, buzzed her on the the intercom and started singing 'my cherie amor', same song I sang when I asked her out on her voicemail. She remembered. Before I could finish the first verse, she had walked out onto the porch and wrapped her arms around me in a warm hug. I have missed her so much.
I gave her the gifts and told her to grab a jacket. I drove to a big park with a lake in the trails behind us, complete with the cliche yet hopelessly romantic picnic basket. She said she wanted to tell me what was wrong, but I put my fingers to her lips and told her 'no'. I didn't want her to think of things that make her sad. She doesn't deserve to be sad.
After we ate, we just sat and talked. When the stars came out, I got out the other blanket, wrapped us up, and just held her close. She is so beautiful. I can't say that enough. She has lost so much weight that I worry about her. I have this memory now, that I saved so carefully, holding her, how soft the skin on her face was, how good her hair smelled, how peaceful we both felt.
I gave her the gifts and told her to grab a jacket. I drove to a big park with a lake in the trails behind us, complete with the cliche yet hopelessly romantic picnic basket. She said she wanted to tell me what was wrong, but I put my fingers to her lips and told her 'no'. I didn't want her to think of things that make her sad. She doesn't deserve to be sad.
After we ate, we just sat and talked. When the stars came out, I got out the other blanket, wrapped us up, and just held her close. She is so beautiful. I can't say that enough. She has lost so much weight that I worry about her. I have this memory now, that I saved so carefully, holding her, how soft the skin on her face was, how good her hair smelled, how peaceful we both felt.