The Simple Things.
It never occurred to me during the tour, but sometimes I was called the 'Next Latin Sensation'...I realized that I have been ignorning my roots, what got me here, that I am different and I enjoy being different. My name is Abner Juda Gil, my mother calls me Chula, and I am Mexican.
I was born here, raised here, I am American..but both my parents are fully Mexican and moved to California from Mexico. I'll ham it up, do a salsa, whatever..but when it comes right down to it, I am me. AJ. I don't know what 'me' is exactly, but maybe someday I'll find it.
I haven't wanted to update about the trial until it was all over, but Alexandra's in jail..she'll probably get parole because her father knows people. It makes me angry that someone can be acquitted of their crimes with money, and it amazes me. How can you put a price on someone's right to freedom? It makes me more determined than ever to start law school when I graduate..not to defend the wealthy, but to judge them.
Alyssa is doing wonderfully, and she's the most amazing girl I have ever met. I want to think of my time with Paula as a beautiful memory, but nothing more. She's very flighty in her affection. I am sorry to have hurt her, but she seems to be doing well (?) I guess..or at least coping....I don't know, I'm a little worried.
Nikki has been on top of the world since she got together with Simon and it's obvious to me now that they belong together. Simon, you better make her happy every single day. She has had way too much stress and sadness, she deserves to be happy.
The tour was so much fun, I'm so sad it's over..it almost seems like waking up from a dream..the party's over, there's no mess to clean up, you just wake up the next morning and go back to being a regular person. American Idol was too soon for me, I need more time to grow...to adjust. I saw Nikki and Kelly and Justin and Tamyra and knew they were at a point I wasn't ready for. Right now, I'm going to apply for an after-school job. Oh, and I'm behind on my homework.
I was born here, raised here, I am American..but both my parents are fully Mexican and moved to California from Mexico. I'll ham it up, do a salsa, whatever..but when it comes right down to it, I am me. AJ. I don't know what 'me' is exactly, but maybe someday I'll find it.
I haven't wanted to update about the trial until it was all over, but Alexandra's in jail..she'll probably get parole because her father knows people. It makes me angry that someone can be acquitted of their crimes with money, and it amazes me. How can you put a price on someone's right to freedom? It makes me more determined than ever to start law school when I graduate..not to defend the wealthy, but to judge them.
Alyssa is doing wonderfully, and she's the most amazing girl I have ever met. I want to think of my time with Paula as a beautiful memory, but nothing more. She's very flighty in her affection. I am sorry to have hurt her, but she seems to be doing well (?) I guess..or at least coping....I don't know, I'm a little worried.
Nikki has been on top of the world since she got together with Simon and it's obvious to me now that they belong together. Simon, you better make her happy every single day. She has had way too much stress and sadness, she deserves to be happy.
The tour was so much fun, I'm so sad it's over..it almost seems like waking up from a dream..the party's over, there's no mess to clean up, you just wake up the next morning and go back to being a regular person. American Idol was too soon for me, I need more time to grow...to adjust. I saw Nikki and Kelly and Justin and Tamyra and knew they were at a point I wasn't ready for. Right now, I'm going to apply for an after-school job. Oh, and I'm behind on my homework.