Aint life grand

[aj_7]

i feel extremely horrible when i cant help myself
im used to doing things on my own
but i cant do it this time
now i feel like im losing my mind
i wouldnt feel that way if others didnt think so to
it says im not crazy...but why should i beleive it
everything they say to do makes it seem like i am
im so confused about everything
i really wish it would just go away
but i already know i will have to live with it my whole life
its never gonna go away
so why should i wish
i guess no reason
but i cant help it
it just comes kind of natural
its strange how the mind thinks sometimes
you know you cant do anything but you still keep wishin
well i guess im off to find the help i dont want
but if i dont get it things will get much worse
if you guys dont mind
dont ask what im talkin about
because i wont say
its none of your business
i just needed to say that
because they say it might help
but im gone