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Have you ever had somethings youve needed to say
but never knew quite how to say it
i feel like that all the time right now
i have so many emotions going through me right now
and i dont know how to deal with it really
its something im not used to
i used to keeping them hidden
but right now its really hard
im kind of in a depressed mood right now
so many things are going on in my life
i always thought the one person i could talk to
and if i needed it, a shoulder to cry on
would always be there for me when times got tough
but right when i needed this person, he just left
One thing that i hate more than anything in this world
are people who lie to my face
over the past month i think i have had more people lie to me
and it makes me so mad
i wish people would just tell me the truth
yeah sometimes the truth hurts more than a lie
but to me if i found out you lied to me it hurts worse
and if you lie to me...how am i ever supposed to trust you
so next time you ever think about lieing to me...rethink it
and just tell me the truth
Well i feeling a lil better now that ive got some of that out
i still have alot to deal with
but it is a start for me....like i said...im not real good at things like this
but if i didnt get some of this stuff out....i dunno what i would do
everything just keeps replaying in the back of mind
just trying to purposely drive me insane
and i dont know how much more i can take
sometimes i think how much easier it would be if i no longer exsisted
but its just a thought...i push it away...just like all the others
To my friends...i just wanted to say that none of this has anything to do with you
you guys have been great
over the past couple of weeks i dont know what i would have done without you
you all are the only things that keep me going during the day
you all keep me laughing...and keep me from thinking all the time
so i just wanted to say thanks
all of this update has to do with other people and my family
so none of it is directed at you
i love all of you guys
well now that i have ranted
im feeling better
well everything seems pretty normal
school sucks, volleyball game tommorrow
just the usual
well thats all for now
so...leave Comments please...
later
Allie
but never knew quite how to say it
i feel like that all the time right now
i have so many emotions going through me right now
and i dont know how to deal with it really
its something im not used to
i used to keeping them hidden
but right now its really hard
im kind of in a depressed mood right now
so many things are going on in my life
i always thought the one person i could talk to
and if i needed it, a shoulder to cry on
would always be there for me when times got tough
but right when i needed this person, he just left
One thing that i hate more than anything in this world
are people who lie to my face
over the past month i think i have had more people lie to me
and it makes me so mad
i wish people would just tell me the truth
yeah sometimes the truth hurts more than a lie
but to me if i found out you lied to me it hurts worse
and if you lie to me...how am i ever supposed to trust you
so next time you ever think about lieing to me...rethink it
and just tell me the truth
Well i feeling a lil better now that ive got some of that out
i still have alot to deal with
but it is a start for me....like i said...im not real good at things like this
but if i didnt get some of this stuff out....i dunno what i would do
everything just keeps replaying in the back of mind
just trying to purposely drive me insane
and i dont know how much more i can take
sometimes i think how much easier it would be if i no longer exsisted
but its just a thought...i push it away...just like all the others
To my friends...i just wanted to say that none of this has anything to do with you
you guys have been great
over the past couple of weeks i dont know what i would have done without you
you all are the only things that keep me going during the day
you all keep me laughing...and keep me from thinking all the time
so i just wanted to say thanks
all of this update has to do with other people and my family
so none of it is directed at you
i love all of you guys
well now that i have ranted
im feeling better
well everything seems pretty normal
school sucks, volleyball game tommorrow
just the usual
well thats all for now
so...leave Comments please...
later
Allie