Touching Base
Met an old friend for coffee and catching up. Not too shabby, really. I was dreading the meeting when it was being planned, but that's because I wasn't sure how far I'd moved past the bad blood that was there from before. Happy to say that all I really needed was to sit down and see her to figure out where I stand.
It was nice. I feel lighter; and I'm not opposed to it being a regular thing.
However, I am pissed at myself for succumbing to the desire for variety and getting chicken and shrimp with groceries. That stuff is freaking expensive. Not happy about the cash flow right now, and I need to put a stop to the spending.
I'm going to start approaching the job market again-- more frequently, at least. I just started a month (almost two) at the engraving store, but I was a desk/office job. I have a fucking degree and graduated with distinction, I should be getting more than "just above" minimum wage for something irrelevant to my education. Plus, my boss is nice, but I'm too anxious around her. It's a bad habit, but it's like my confidence drains when she's around. I have no problem doing my job when she's not there-- judging times, sizing, setting up, engraving, etc.-- but when she is, I'm slower, wary, and looking to her to confirm that I'm doing it properly before I develop a bad habit with something.
I'm thinking it's because the job isn't something I'm actually familiar with. I'm trained to edit, correct, and write-- as well as problem-solve, organize, and develop and communicate ideas. It's completely out of my element when I have to keep my mouth shut when someone wants "Congrat BFF" or "To -- Love Grandpa". Never mind the aesthetic element you have to argue for. Try explaining why a paragraph should not be written in "Old English Filled" to someone without outright saying "it's metal, not an illuminated text. If I do this, you can't properly read it."
So the engraving is frustrating and I'm looking elsewhere for something. Hopefully I get something in my field by November. That'd be awesome.
It's been quiet, otherwise. Playing Harvest Moon: Grand Bazaar lately as the monthly treat (which will have to stop happening) and looking forward to next month's three paydays so I can get a bit of savings started up.
Been writing, sleeping, wishing for some good fortune while I try to get into a better position in life. I'm tired of feeling like I'm always going against the current.
It was nice. I feel lighter; and I'm not opposed to it being a regular thing.
However, I am pissed at myself for succumbing to the desire for variety and getting chicken and shrimp with groceries. That stuff is freaking expensive. Not happy about the cash flow right now, and I need to put a stop to the spending.
I'm going to start approaching the job market again-- more frequently, at least. I just started a month (almost two) at the engraving store, but I was a desk/office job. I have a fucking degree and graduated with distinction, I should be getting more than "just above" minimum wage for something irrelevant to my education. Plus, my boss is nice, but I'm too anxious around her. It's a bad habit, but it's like my confidence drains when she's around. I have no problem doing my job when she's not there-- judging times, sizing, setting up, engraving, etc.-- but when she is, I'm slower, wary, and looking to her to confirm that I'm doing it properly before I develop a bad habit with something.
I'm thinking it's because the job isn't something I'm actually familiar with. I'm trained to edit, correct, and write-- as well as problem-solve, organize, and develop and communicate ideas. It's completely out of my element when I have to keep my mouth shut when someone wants "Congrat BFF" or "To -- Love Grandpa". Never mind the aesthetic element you have to argue for. Try explaining why a paragraph should not be written in "Old English Filled" to someone without outright saying "it's metal, not an illuminated text. If I do this, you can't properly read it."
So the engraving is frustrating and I'm looking elsewhere for something. Hopefully I get something in my field by November. That'd be awesome.
It's been quiet, otherwise. Playing Harvest Moon: Grand Bazaar lately as the monthly treat (which will have to stop happening) and looking forward to next month's three paydays so I can get a bit of savings started up.
Been writing, sleeping, wishing for some good fortune while I try to get into a better position in life. I'm tired of feeling like I'm always going against the current.