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This is more difficult than i thought that it would be. I was good the following day, but after that its been down hill. It feels like i've just lost my very best friend or something. I'm sure that it was probably for the best. But it sure doesn't seem like it. I'm trying SO hard not to cry, but its not helping at all. Its like i can't even do anything about my tears. I miss him so much tht it hurts. Yesterday at the mall this one guy wanted to talk to me. I gave him my number and everything, but It just didn't feel right. Nothing feels right anymore, and this really sucks. I know its too soon to feel like things should be normal. But should this really be as hard as it is? I'm so not the crying type, but i wish things were the way they were before. I don't think that they ever will be. I just have to pick myself up and move on. It just that at this point, i don't want ANYONE else. But that doesn't change things. I don't think that things for me will ever be the same!