Meh
Before night fell I was having a great time.. Saw Clarice and Anais today, Sam slept over last night.. things were going great.. Then, after seeing Clerks 2 with Mark, Sam, Andrew, Andrea and Steph I was stuck alone with Mark. Mark was really nice in the beginning. We had a great time at borders before going to the movie theater, but after the movie, after play fighting in the parking lot and getting into his car he changed. It was a real quick change too. We were waiting from a call from Sam to see where we were meeting up for our late night dinner and it went like this.
I was having trouble with my seatbelt, so I asked him to hold on a minute when we started pulling out of the plaza. He didn't. Infact, he started to drive faster and faster which really freaked me out because I had no friggen seatbelt on. What was worse was some car pulled out infront of us when I still struggled with the seatbelt and he slammed on the breaks. If I didn't have strong legs and arms I would have flown right through his windsheild. I was so pissed off at him that I even yelled at him and told him to pull over so I could get out and call someone else to take me home. He refused and apologized over and over then asked if he could make it up to me by getting me some icecream. So, I let him. We went to this Mitchell's place and got some ice cream. It was decent there. We were just talking, falling into bliss over the brain freezes we got. Threw away our stuff, got back into the car.. Round two. I successfully got my seatbelt on this time, but the thing that got me next was our conversation.
"Why are you so protective of yourself, Michelle?" I somewhat glared at him for that, though I really didn't know how to take the question. I figured it desevered some kind of answer, so I replied.
"I'm so protective of myself because there is no one there to do the protecting for me."
Then, of course, he went into the whole relationship speil, saying if we dated he'd make sure nothing bad would happen... Blah. Blah. Blah.
I'm sick of it. I'm getting so sick of it. I had thought about dating Mark before because: he has a car, has a job, goes to school, takes care of himself (but not his teeth), and yeah. He seemed rather responsible. But I won't date him. I don't think I could stand that.
Anyway, a little thing made me happy. After we got out of the movie, before going to the car, the whole group of us was sitting infront of Crocker Park Theater and I just happened to look up. The neon lights from Crocker were reflecting off of the clouds and I thought of someone that moment. Rather randomly, if I may add. The sight was breathtaking and at that moment I wish that one person was there just to share it with me. He would have loved it, I know it. The whole time I was in Mark's car, besides the part where I was in fear of my friggen life, I couldn't stop thinking about him. It's just a little crush, like always, I'm sure I'll slip out of it again, but it was really hard. The sights I got to see today made me wish he were there to share them with me. It was truly, truly beautiful and helped me forget about a lot of things.
One thing is for sure after tonight, though.
I don't want to ride with Mark in his car again.
I was having trouble with my seatbelt, so I asked him to hold on a minute when we started pulling out of the plaza. He didn't. Infact, he started to drive faster and faster which really freaked me out because I had no friggen seatbelt on. What was worse was some car pulled out infront of us when I still struggled with the seatbelt and he slammed on the breaks. If I didn't have strong legs and arms I would have flown right through his windsheild. I was so pissed off at him that I even yelled at him and told him to pull over so I could get out and call someone else to take me home. He refused and apologized over and over then asked if he could make it up to me by getting me some icecream. So, I let him. We went to this Mitchell's place and got some ice cream. It was decent there. We were just talking, falling into bliss over the brain freezes we got. Threw away our stuff, got back into the car.. Round two. I successfully got my seatbelt on this time, but the thing that got me next was our conversation.
"Why are you so protective of yourself, Michelle?" I somewhat glared at him for that, though I really didn't know how to take the question. I figured it desevered some kind of answer, so I replied.
"I'm so protective of myself because there is no one there to do the protecting for me."
Then, of course, he went into the whole relationship speil, saying if we dated he'd make sure nothing bad would happen... Blah. Blah. Blah.
I'm sick of it. I'm getting so sick of it. I had thought about dating Mark before because: he has a car, has a job, goes to school, takes care of himself (but not his teeth), and yeah. He seemed rather responsible. But I won't date him. I don't think I could stand that.
Anyway, a little thing made me happy. After we got out of the movie, before going to the car, the whole group of us was sitting infront of Crocker Park Theater and I just happened to look up. The neon lights from Crocker were reflecting off of the clouds and I thought of someone that moment. Rather randomly, if I may add. The sight was breathtaking and at that moment I wish that one person was there just to share it with me. He would have loved it, I know it. The whole time I was in Mark's car, besides the part where I was in fear of my friggen life, I couldn't stop thinking about him. It's just a little crush, like always, I'm sure I'll slip out of it again, but it was really hard. The sights I got to see today made me wish he were there to share them with me. It was truly, truly beautiful and helped me forget about a lot of things.
One thing is for sure after tonight, though.
I don't want to ride with Mark in his car again.